Deltadom,I really appreciate your honesty in your posting. All I can say is those that hunger and thirst for righteousness will be filled. And it sounds to me as though you are thirsting. Another thing is "my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. You said you are feeling weak. It seems to me you are at the perfect place to fellowship with Christ. You are thirsting and feeling weak, what a time to throw yourself at his feet and ask him to restore you.The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;a broken and contrite heart,O God you will not despise.Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.In regards to being angry about sin and the sin of others, I am reminded of Genesis 18:25 "Will the Judge of all the earth not do right?Consider it pure joy my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. I know it is not easy to have this attitude in the midst of suffering. But we should rejoice in being counted worthy of suffering disgrace for the Name.I want you to say this over again "I want all my relationships to be Godly and forgive". Stop there and forget the but. Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.Never feel ashamed in asking for prayer. Paul constantly encouraged the churches to pray for one another. By the way I have been there, do not lose hope my brother! We must keep our eyes on the prize.We run a race for a crown that does not spoil!In Christ,Murray