I thought I could remember a time when I would feel the conviction in my spirit from the Holy Spirit, I thought I could remember a time when I truly repented for the first time... but I don't know anymore. I fear that I have committed the unforgivable sin and these thoughts are on my mind almost all the time... I don't know what to do... Please pray that God works repentance and faith in my heart and brings me out of my folly. That His Convicting, Loving Spirit works in my heart and that I come to sincere and true repentance.... that my heart of pride and hardheartedness is shattered and softened into one that love God and longs to serve Him... not for salvation (for salvation is by grace alone through faith alone in Christ alone)... but through thanksgiving of all that He's done for me.... yeah...
Thanks so very much