"There will likely be a time in our Christian journeys when, like Jacob, we will wrestle with God all night long... But there must eventually come a dawn when we say, "OK, God, You win... Not My will but Thine be done."I've been saying and praying something of the sort (and often literally "not my will but Thine be done") more or less since I converted (2.5 years ago or so). I've prayed a lot of dangerous prayers, "make me Christ-like," "make me what You want me to be," etc, and I still do. I think my two favorite phrases in the Bible, and the ones I most identify with, are:Luke 22:42b "not My will, but Thine be done."Job 13:15a "Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him"I yearn for a state of total surrender on my part, that God's will be done in me as it is in Heaven.It's sometimes frustrating: I'm willing for Him to "take over," never mind this free will business, it only ever meant I could mess up anyway. But that's just not the way He works, I suppose.He's been amazingly faithful, though, it seems He's always working in me somewhere or dealing with me about something, so usually each month is better than the ones before."But I'm just human. None of us is going to be perfect until we get to heaven."That's a lie straight out of hell. It's one of Satan's favorites, it makes it look like he's done such an effective job, like he's so much more powerful than God, that we have no hope of obeying God, that we can only look forward to Heaven.1 Corinthians 10:13There hath no temptation taken hold of you but such as is common to man. But God is faithful; He will not suffer you to be tempted beyond that which ye are able to bear, but with the temptation will also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.1 John 514 And this is the confidence that we have in Him: that if we ask anything according to His will, He heareth us.15 And if we know that He hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of Him.1 Peter 113 Therefore gird up the loins of your mind; be sober and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.14 As obedient children, do not fashion yourselves according to the former lusts in your ignorance, 15 but as He who hath called you is holy, so be ye holy in all manner of living,16 because it is written: "Be ye holy, for I am holy."Matthew 5:48Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father who is in Heaven is perfect. The first blip on the screen came when the enemy, already a rebel himselfSon of the morning! Highest of all creation, and first to rebel. Why did he turn? More puzzling, how? From whence came evil, if it had no vessel before him? So the man and the woman tried to wrest control from the hands of their soveriegn Creator. They resisted the will of God and insisted on sharing His throne. The battle had begun.In the garden of Eden the first Adam started the war, In the garden of Gethsemane the second Adam won the decisive victory. Once the will was surrendered, the rest was secure.As long as we refuse to surrender our will to the will of God, we are never truly free. Rather, we find ourselves dominated by ungodly appetites and forces.Quite true, and on a broader scale than one first imagines. Ever read C.S. Lewis's "Abolition of Man"? The pinnacle of man's conquest of nature, it seems, would be in reality nature's conquest of man."I have been before God, and have given myself, all that I am and have, to God; so that I am not, in any respect, my own... I have given myself clear away, and have not retained any thing as my own."May we all be thus. Certainly I have no love of trying to find my own way or travelling it, for only at the end of God's path is there anything but death.Sadly, for the past 150 years or more, evangelicalism has developed a theology that offers assurance of salvation to almost anyone who prays a prayer or "makes a decision for Christ", even though he may still be clinging to his rights, holding on to his sin, and bent on running his own life. The scripture does not recognize such a profession as genuine.As I understand it, B.H. Clendenen (in his 80s now) has had one vision from God in all his life: that of a sinner in hell searching for the preacher that lied to him, telling him that he could go on sinning and still go to Heaven.Jesus warned, "Not everyone who says to Me, "Lord, Lord," will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only He who does the will of my Father who is in heaven." (Matt.7:21)How clear, how thoroughly clear. I hadn't even seen how obvious the point of that verse is until now.God says "Here's a blank piece of paper. I want you to sign your name on the bottom line, hand it back and let Me fill in the details. Why? Because I am God; because I have bought you; because I am trustworthy; because you know how much I love you; because you live for my glory and not your own independant, self-promoting pleasure."Amen!When she wrote, "Work out Thy whole will in my life at any cost," she had no way of knowing what full surrender would cost her. Although some might consider the cost extremely high, I am confident that Betty, having laid down her life for Christ, would not think the price too high.To me, being killed in service to God is preferable to any other death except being taken home after a full lifetime of service to God. To live is Christ, to die is gain.when asked how he would like to be introduced when speaking to gatherings, he says simply, "I wish to be introduced as 'a slave of Jesus Christ'".Beautiful, Biblical, and exactly the way I feel.The first of those changes took place at the beginning of the 20th century, when the 19th century emphasis on "pursuing holiness" shifted to a desire for "uplifting, ecstatic experiences."And it's an utter tragedy.A second change took place in the 1950's and 60's- a shift from the call to full surrender, to the call to "committment"And it's a slap in the face of God.Translators did not like the term "bondslave" to be applied to people. Who wants to be somebody's slave? They replaced it with "servant"Perhaps they had no personal experience of truly being God's slaves, and it made no sense to them. Most professing Christians have no such experience.Jesus makes it clear in Luke 17 that however much you do for God, at the end of the day you say: "I am an unworthy slave; I only did what is the duty of the slave to do!" But all that is gone now, by the replacement of the word "slave" with the word "servant'".I've thought of them as meaning the same, in this context, but it's eye-opening to see the difference in meaning that most people probably go by.Lord, engage my heart today with a passion that will not pass away. I pledge from this day to the grave- to be Thine own, unquestioning slave.Amen!'I am yours- I belong to you, and I want to spend the rest of my life fulfilling your wishes."May we all choose to be bondslaves of Christ Jesus.I have come to believe that there is no higher calling than to be marked as His slaveThe greatest emperor in all of history cannot compare to "Christ in you, the hope of glory" (Colossians 1:27).The example of those devoted to Communism should cause US- those who claim to know the TRUTH- to examine our own level of sacrifice and surrenderThey put us to shame. Replace the words "Socialism" and "the party" with "Christ" and you've got roughly what every one of us should be saying.For a while I've thought that Socialism came about due to a gross failure on the part of the Church to tend to the needy. Now I think it's also partly due to the gross failure on the part of the Church to be properly devoted to Christ. People saw what it meant to be "Christian" and wanted no part of the lukewarm hypocrisy that characterized much of the institutional "Church", the Socialists were more serious, consistent, and honest about their agenda.I need to be so utterly God's that He can use me or hide me, as He chooses, as an arrow in His hand or in his quiver. I will ask no questions: I relinquish all rights to Him who desires my supreme good. He knows best.Amen!"We think giving our all to the Lord is like taking a $1,000 bill and laying it on the table- "Here's my life Lord. I'm giving it all." But the reality for most of us is that He sends us to the bank and has us cash in the $1,000 for quarters. We go through life putting out 25 cents here and 50 cents there; $1.00 here and $2.00 there. Listening to a neigbor kid's troubles, giving a cup of water to a thirsty old man in a nursing home. It's done in all those little acts of love, 25 cents at a time."That might be right, and certainly there's the constant flow of little things, but I think it's us giving everything over to God and Him filling us up beyond anything we could possibly have been apart from Him, and constantly pouring out through us ever-increasing rivers of living water and His love.God's call to lay down our lives on the altar of sacrifice means that we give Him all that we are - our rights, our reputation, our desires, our future plans; everything that concerns us - first, for a lifetime, and then, day by day, moment by moment, decision by decision.Let us never forget Abraham, whom God called to put his only begotten son on the altar. Putting myself on the altar would not be particularly hard, but something like that would be a much more difficult test, because it is so dire an infringement upon another. I'm thankful that He would not ask me to harm another, so far as I know.In those moments, my emotions sometimes cry out, 'I've already given so much! I just can't give any more." That's when I need to take a trip to Calvary and look into the eyes of a bleeding God who gave everything to reconcile me to Himself.Yes, whenever we think He's asking too much, let us remember that He also offered up His only begotten Son, and He didn't hold back when the time came. He knew what had to be done for those He loved, and He sacrificed more than we can ever know to do it. How much more does He deserve our love?PROVISION- Will I have what I need?Seek ye first the Kingdom of God...PLEASURE- Will I be happy?Irrelevant.If I fully surrender to God, will I be miserable?Irrelevant. Will I be able to do the things I enjoy?Irrelevant.What if He wants me to give up my career...or sports... or my favorite hobby...or my best friend...or the foods I really like?Then you give it up.Will I be fulfilled if I obey Him?Of course, but you must be willing to do without any fulfillment or pleasure. All this is irrelevant, unconditional surrender is unconditional surrender. PROTECTION- Will I (and those I love) be safe?Irrelevant, and beyond your control to begin with.PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS- Will my relational needs be met?Irrelevant, and a relationship, a true, loving, unimpeded, all-consuming relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ is enough for anyone.What if the Lord wants me to be single all my life?So be it. How can I live without sex or romance?By His grace. What if my mate never loves me?Irrelevant, the absolutely sovereign, just, and loving God of Heaven loves you.How can I handle the rejection of my parents?By God's grace.What if people reject our family because of our commitment to biblical standards?Rejoice that you are deemed worthy to share in Christ's sufferings.God wants us to experience provision, pleasure, protection, and personal relationships. But He wants us to seek them in the only place they can be found- in Him.How amazingly gracious He is... these things are meant to be a by-product of a right relationship with Him, and He is absolutely faithful to provide us as we need according to His plan.In the bible, whenever one of His children was fearful to step out alone, God's simple response was- I WILL BE WITH YOU. The implication was - I AM ENOUGH. IF YOU HAVE ME, YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU NEED.Amen!Am I submissive to God in relation to what (and how much) I eat and drink, and how much and when I sleep?Sleep, I sleep too much... I know I've got to start getting up in the early hours and spend time alone with God in prayer and His Word, but the combination of the temptation of comfort and sleep and the less-than-fully-awake state in which I must usually make the decision... As I understand it, God kept John Wesley going on 4 hours sleep a day.Let me be employed by Thee or laid aside for Thee, Exalted for thee or brought low for Thee. Let me be full, let me be empty. Let me have all things, let me have nothing. I freely and heartily yield all things to thy pleasure and disposal.Amen! Whatever you desire, O Lord Jesus Christ, have it be thus.Take my will and make it Thine; it shall be no longer mine.Again and again I plead with Him, consume me, possess me, have it literally be no longer me living, but Christ living in me.I have learned that even when I am not willing- I can pray for the Lord to "cause" me to be willing.I've had many similar experiences. Sometimes I feel like I'm waiting for Him to "get on with it," but I'm the problem, not Him.Just bringing this back up to the front. This message is so important in the church. If we could understand this then so much would fall into place in our Christian lives.Thank you, it's a blessing to read.