Thanks laholmes!These are great links!Here is a couple you may or may not be familiar with:Christian Classics Ethereal Libraryhttp://www.ccel.org/http://www.whatsaiththescripture.com/Text.Only/index.htmlCame back to edit this, didn't realize that CCEL was already intigrated with the puritan sermons site.But mainly what I want to say is God bless you!If you weren't sent from the Lord, then I don't know what...I have been reading and listening to a lot of sermons and a lot of it is very convicting, nothing wrong with that. In trying to keep some balance, some proper pespective...I guess it's like you can only take so much pounding, so much grieving of the soul.Sometimes you need "Pleasant words.....Sweetness to the soul and health to the bones" Proverbs 16:24.I went to the Puritan Sermons site and read Richard Baxter's "Directions for a Peaceful Death".Sure, sounds like a funny place to get encouragement, but when I read this it lifted my spirits: "God has anointed us, and sealed us, and given us the pledge or earnest of his Spirit into our hearts." "This is the ledge or earnest of our inheritance," Eph. 1:14. And what a comfort should it be to us, when we look towards heaven, to find such a pledge of God within us! If you say, I fear I have not this earnest of the Spirit; whence then did your desires of holiness arise. what weaned you from the world, and made you place your hopes and happiness above? Whence came your enmity to sin, and opposition to it, and your earnest desires after the glory of God, the prosperity of the gospel, and the good of souls? The very love of holiness and holy persons, and your desires to know God and perfectly love him, do show that heavenly nature or spirit within you, which is your surest evidence for eternal life: for that spirit was sent from heaven, to draw up your hearts, and fit you for it; and God does not give you such natures, and desires, and preparations in vain. This also is called "The witness of the Spirit with (or to) our spirit, that we are the children of God; and if children then heirs; heirs of God, and joint heirs with Christ," Rom. 8:15-17. It witnesses our adoption, by evidencing it; as a seal or pledge gives witness to our title to that which is so confirmed to us. The nature of every thing is suited to its use and end; God would not have given us a heavenly nature or desire, if he had not intended us for heaven.It was just what I needed to hear.Thank you so much! _/crsschk\\_