My husband and I recently decided to stop having home fellowship and head back to our local church. I have to say, that it has been so HARD!! I'm a Christian, I love the Lord, but I'm losing it!! I've been to a few churches and really went back with an open heart and mind, but nothing has changed!!
Through this site and mostly seeking the Lord, I've really sensed an "awakening" among the true bride and was hopeful that church would be alittle different from the last time I left. Well, I was dead wrong. It's like absolutly nothing changed... maybe it was even worse!!! My husband and I just sat there today in complete amazment as we watched people convulsing on the floor and speaking in "tounges." It was like a 3 ring circus!!! It was scary to say the least!! Now, I know that there are genuine moves of the spirit and people may seem alittle strange, but what we witnessed at this church had absolutly nothing to do with glorifing Christ!!
Today, I just cried out to God and felt so frustrated. I want to see Him glorified, I'm sick of all the foolishness and junk that goes on in His name. As I cried out to Him, He spoke so tenderly to my heart. He told me first, that I was more concerned than He was! He reminded me of the tower of babble. He wasn't fretting and wringing His hands, worring about their foolishness... NO!! He was laughing at them!! And when God decided to put an end to all of it... IT WAS OVER!!! He will only let foolish men get so far!! And just when it seems like their going to complete their mission, He just breaths a breath from His nostril and topples the entire display!!! With ONE breath... it will all be destroyed!!! Praise God!!
The other thing He told me was that He allows us to see certain things, not to critisize or gossip, but to intercede. Everyone around me just thinks the pastor is great and the church is so wonderful. I started to feel like there was something wrong with me, like maybe I was just too critical. Or maybe I was becoming too cynical, but He just reassured me that He has given me His heart and His eyes. That I really do see things that others are blind to. That doesn't mean that I have a special gift of discernment, it just means that I need to PRAY!! Pray for every lost person in that church to see the truth!! He will destroy all the works of the flesh, so we need to pray for every lost person to wake up before they are crushed in the falling tower of babble!!
