amen, robert. i agree breaking up the fallow ground is the first step to revival. i had to do this last year. it hurts to see your heart in His light. to see sin the way God sees it, but thank God i allowed Him to purge me! i know now my heart is clean and my mind is not a war like before. God is continually in my thoughts and i desire to please Him. everyday i allow God to examine me. there maybe hidden sins that i can't see and i need to ask God to search my heart to see if i have grieved Him in any way and when He does show me something, i ponder it, seeing my intent and how grievouse it was to Him and that makes me weep.
Psalm 139:23-24 (King James Version)
King James Version (KJV)
23Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
24And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
i confess it whole heartily and i know and believe God has cleanse me from that filth and i go on and continue to walk free from sin.
1 John 1:9
9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
i do desire that first love experience again. remembering when i first met my Love and how madly i fell in love with Him. i want to be so crazy about my first Love again. this is what i am seeking after now. now that my heart is all broken up and i have allowed God to consume all sin, i am seeking a fresh touch from Him that will burn me up, until i know He has all of me and i have all of Him!
i remember back then when i was walking very close to Him, was truly worshiping Him in SPIRIT, i was always in continual prayer, seeking Him out behind close doors and fasting much, doing what i saw the Father doing, never moving haste and religouse works. fasting and prayer was a lifestyle to me, not a struggle. i would pray and each time i lifted my voice, i KNEW it reach the throne room of God and that i have His attention. and it wouldn't take long for my prayers to reach His throne room and that i am in His presense. He would wake me up almost everynight to traivail in prayer for others or to know His heart and He would burn His message in me and i would for days blow the trumpet and preach what he had burned in me. but now my prayers take alot longer to be in His presense, not like before. but i'm not frustrated because i believe my Love is leading me back to a closer communion with Him again!
this is the desire He has put in my heart and i will not stop until i have reach the goal He has place before me!
bless you, brother for encouraging the body. it is so importand to break the fallow gound of our hearts or else we will not hear the voice of our Beloved.