i dont know if that is the right expression in english, but what i meen by "blue Eyed " is that i see many evangelist that say people are saved, when i think the bible says something else...giving people assurense when maybe thay shouldent, my dilemma is that i sometimes doubt my wifes salvation, maybe not so much the salvation as her intrest in the things of God, i can see many things isent quite right in many areas... im no way perfect myself and have a long way to go, but i have this longing for the things of god, one example is my wife isent to intrested in the bible or prayer... just that is an "alarm clock" for me, but what conserns me is that ive talked to her and she knows the truth and she admitts she dosent do everything as she should, im aware some "bear fruits " faster then other people...i hate that word it is a process, but what "disturbs" me is everyone is telling me, and her that it is alright, do you belive? do you want to serve him? she says yes, then you are saved, god dont throw away anyone who wants to be his child . Now i have to say she is a very good and loving wife in all of her ways, she is probably the best mother on earth :) and im so blessed to have her as my wife, but it is my love for her that makes it hard not to see sertain things in her life, what kind tv program she watches, another example is she smokes ciggarettes, i do belive one can be christian and then still struggle whit that problem, but i cant see the will to end it even tho she says she wants to quit, and in the beginning i was all on her and saying all things just carelessly and probably puched her away from god, becoming a farise in my house puching all kind of laws on her, i could have dont it in a much more christlike way, but now ive distansted my self a little, ive gotten her to agree on some biblereading and prayertime toghter and also whit our kids, but i just worrie that she might not be saved... its just that she isent all that changed from before she confessed and now when she does confess christ...
she wasent you know for us humans so currupt and wicked in her lifestyle, maybe im being paranoid ...but still this is a problem, and i pray over this.... but im so tired of evangelist just ignoring so much what the word says... ive told her dont listen to people so much..not even me...compare your life whit the bible does god say you are saved...then belive it,
its just that i see so many people who say they are christians.... go to church but they dont pray they dont read their bible thay live as the world in the world...and then they say to my wife that she is saved and have nothing to worrie about and that her husband probably just gone to far whit this jesus thing,
id like just the dear saints on SI to share your experienses and thoughts and do share some scripture whit me to guide me in this matter
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