If you knew me, you would know how UNculturally Jewish I am. I'm so American...for instance my favorite holidays are the 4th of July and tommorrow, Thankgiving, and my idea of a good time (outside of a house intercessory prayer meeting) is to tailgate outside White Sox Park, before a game, barbequeing brats and ribeyes washed down with A+W Root Beer with my son.
I love American culture, I love America, the part of American culture I love is the FREE exchange of ideas, EVEN if you disagree with these views. As a country, thats what makes us great, you dont have to FEAR to forward the ideas you think are TRUE, thats what makes this country GREAT.
I loved growing up in the synagogue, studying Torah, studying Hebrew, my bar-mitzvah, I will never forget, thats when a young man is called up before the assembly and the Torah, the first five Books of Moses, are in a parchment scroll, they are unfurled and the young man reads the portion that week in Hebrew with the Rabbi next to him, I read from Numbers. I was 13.
Its funny, because at the same time, my mother was "into" black culture (she was VERY "into" black culture as my sister is bi-racial) but anyway I used to go to black churches also at this time, and I just loved them! Loved them, there would be these big black women,dressed in their finest clothes and they would welcome me so nicely, and then when the preacher began to speak, or the choir sing, many women would get slain in the Spirit, and run up and down the aisles praising God, in English, or in tongues known only to God.....this just tripped me out, and I loved it....and then when the preacher spoke, he would do "calm to storm" preaching....which would mesmerize me, it was so different from the synagogue, but it all felt very similiar.
Then two years later, a bunch of "Jesus Freaks" rented a multi room, large house across from our building and I felt DRAWN to them, I was 15. So I decided to re-read the Bible, and instead of starting in the New Testament, I started in the Old and was planning on going into the New. One day I was reading from Genesis in their backyard, by myself, quietly and the Spirit of the Lord came over me, and I gathered a bunch of old bricks together, like Abraham, and I was going to make a fire offering to the Lord, just a bunch of twigs, coz I wasn't aware of the Sacrificial Offering of Jesus, all I knew was that I wanted to praise Him in the way I knew how.
anyway, one of the well-meaning, but totally immature zealots saw me doing this and just LAID into me on a theological basis. Today I understand what he was saying, but he was maybe 25, and full of zeal, and didnt understand that what I was doing was starting to walk on the road to Emmaus....I didnt know I was, I was just full of love for God, and full of the Holy Spirit, though I didnt know of this Gift OR of what Jesus did...yet.
But this brother laid into me so bad, and with such vehement zeal, that he literally drove me away from Messiah for 27 years, because what I thought, felt, at that moment was this: to accept Jesus as Messiah, does that mean I am no longer a Jew?
and he told me, yes, you will no longer be a Jew.
so I walked away from there and never returned to that communal group home of "Jesus Freaks".
Now today, after reading and pouring over Scripture, Old and New Testament I realize, in the Leading of the Holy Ghost, how wrong that man was.
Oh he was full of zeal, he just KNEW, and rather than discerning and prayerfully considering his words, rather than nurturing a young man, a child of Israel, a child of Abraham, as he IS ALSO a child of Abraham, he let his spiritual immaturity stumble a an embryonic seeker.
I bear no ill will, but I am very wary of zealots, and very circumspect about the words I use with my fellow Jews, who do not know Messiah.
hear me, they think, that once they accept Jesus as Messiah, that means that they are no longer Jews.......right or wrong (wrong), thats what they think, and they would rather die, than renounce the faith. What they should be led to realize is that Jesus is a continuation of the Faith, not a dimunition of the Faith.
Who knows, maybe America one day will be like Germany. Jewish culture once flourished in Germany. Circa 1880, if you would have told a German Jew, that one day a man would arise from the ranks of the people, and throw us into concentration camps and burn us, they would have said you were crazy.
But than again, if you told them that in 1948, out of the ashes of hitlers hell, the State of Israel would be born, they would REALLY thought you were goofy.
Who knows which way the Wind of the Spirit will blow?
All I know is this; if I wanted to today, I could get on an El Al Jet, fly to Tel Aviv, and claim my citizenship as a returning Jew to the State of Israel......did you know that?.....any Jew in the world has that right....irrevocable, just like the Covenant Yahweh made with His people.
But there would be a lot of heck to pay, the minute I stood up in synagogue and said that Yeshua is Messiah.....ahahhahahahhahh! Glory!!
and no more tailgating at White Sox park!!!
happy Thanksgiving again, neil