Yet I reluctantly admit that part of me does emphathize with this 'come out' aching. Is every organization and institution that identifies themselves as a church, in fact, an authentic church?
Same here. The premise is off by a long shot as it is being promoted but I am in agreement with a lot of this expression from you all here.
Most of us long for fellowship with other believers on not only a weekly, but also a daily basis, studying the teachings of the apostles, worshipping, breaking bread together, and going out into the world together...we long for a lifestyle pattern resembling the New Testament body.
Which I believe keeps many of us going by doing at least that which is possible by coming here. It's highly inadequate and limited, but at the least it seems to feed that part of the spirit that these elements can give it. Sharing our thoughts and experience, studying and being studied by that which we allow to be exposed to each other...
To me though it seems that there is an ever existing condemnation for those who would strike out on their own, and leave the "system".
We have been so brain washed to think that our spiritual life is based on what building we attend that we forget we are accepted in Christ alone. Many use this frailty to abuse people and they will say things like, "if you're not in church you're out of God's will"
Yes, but what if I sense more of His approval being in a cave somewhere? What if by meeting in a cafe or house with one or two other brethren we have real fellowship uninhibited by man"s denominations, and doctrines?
"Manipulated" comes to mind, far different than being compelled.
I can relate to this longing for New Testament fellowship. This is a question that I have struggled with for quite some time now. I've done the church shopping thing and considered home-church but each time I feel the Spirit is leading me just to grow where he has planted me. I have prayed much over this and right now the only answer is to "wait". I can tell you that I have learned much about my own selfish pride, impatience, and unbelief through this process. It has been a time of refining. Yet still the longing remains...
Ron, thank you. I know going back some ways now this came up numerous times amongst some of us. "Wait". I am still there. It has been ... I have lost track how long it has been since I darkened the doors of a church building, short of going to hear Art Katz, short of our brother Josh's wonderful church in the park, a handful of spots. But as to any sort of 'regular' attendance, a couple of years now. It's manifold for reasons, many that are just ... indifferent, a particular season perhaps, present circumstances, job, what have you. Mixed in is all the elements already mentioned here and not the least of all ... A suspicion that the possibility could be even disobedience. Just a lack of even truly pondering the question adequately. Trying to be honest here.
There is a great part of me that is just in opposition to ... pretense and falsehood, not necessarily the overt, but the lack of just sheer honesty. The weirdness of 'prophetic' utterance that is often predominant in the churches that would appeal to more spiritual matters. The hard and requirement based letter of the law sans mercy, the overt opposite that is all to predominant ... ease and [i]easy[/i].
Not perfection, perfectly honest, that kind of [i]peculiar[/i].
Not new or different or other ...
"Old" ... yes! Old as in apostolic, old as in [i]original[/i], original intention.
There is any number of those here I would flee to in a heartbeat to sit under ... Where is that substance of T. Austin Sparks, that mantle?
Ah, but the question comes or rather the word; [i]Preference[/i]?