Brother,
What you expressed, reminded me of something Alan penned a while back...The Beauty of Brokeness...thanks for sharing your heart. Dm
The Beauty of Brokenness
O for the beauty of brokenness
a treasure of trials sent by God
the gift of His crucible's fire
the blessing of discipline's rod
For muscles are built up by tearing
made stronger through intensive pain
So faith if it would be found worthy
must know severe mercy through pain
Our source of salvation through suffering
a merciful High Priest was made
Subjected to weakness and anguish
He groaned and He cried - but obeyed
And when through His anguish enduring
was come to His fullness complete
A sacrifice perfect He offered
His head, then His hands, then His feet
And wounded and broken and bleeding
and gasping for breath lifted high
The purest love ever earth witnessed
the Righteous One for sinners died
And would we be formed to His likeness
His image to bear and His name
must realize the beauty of brokenness
and welcome the blessing of pain