What a wonderful thread!
The previous posts have been of much encouragement to me, we are not alone!
The Lord has really laid on my heart the sin of unbelief. And according to Hebrews 3:12, this makes my heart an evil heart:
"Take heed, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief, in departing from the living God."
Along with this the Lord has really been teaching me about true repentance. In the past when I saw a place of sin I would confess it and [u]on my own strength[/u] I would fix it, or atleast try to. I wouldn't truly wait on the Lord and cry out to Him. Rather I would fix myself, living by my faith, not "by the faith of the Son of God" (Galatians 2:20), this lead to a great deal of spiritual pride in my own life. And I just thank the Lord for allowing me to fall.
So now here I am, broken, aware of my utter sinfullness, and inability to fix it. Crying out to our Father. The Lord, in His mercy gave me this verse the other day:
James 5:11
"Behold, we count them happy which endure. Ye have heard of the patience of Job, and have seen the end of the Lord; that the Lord is very pitiful, and of tender mercy."
Zac poonen gives a very good teaching on the sin of unbelief, it is only like 12 minutes long.
Check it out:
[url=http://64.34.176.235/sermons/SID8173.mp3]Zac Poonen - Unbelief[/url]
Yours in the Lord,
-Trevor