awakenwithin
Feb 24, 2007
I have and will keep praying for you. and your family. I was going through some struggle with my family. I live with my brother. up until two weeks ago my brother was not saved. I got so upset and would say very hurtful things. I prayed God make me weep over my words. That I would care, It still is hard but God;s grace is winning. Just 5 months ago my father died. after that one struggle after other came into my life. I have many health prombles. It was so hard. Just a month ago I went to Ca to get help. With high hope I came back, only to be worse. Although God is teaching me alot. The battle is hard. I said I give up many times. Just take me home. I don't care about my health, I would just cry. I was trying, I did care. But there was nothing left. The fear of dying was on my mind. My time with God was lessen.I was a fool, to give my time with God. It was hard to read. I love God. But everything is huge, to big. My brother just went to jail for 30 days. My health is bad, But I know my only hope is God. My biggest sin, is what I eat. I pay for my sin, everyday. I slowly kill myself when I eat food that hurts me.I want to hate this sin. So much I can walk away from eating those thing I love Life is hard. But God is with us. I know how it is of just wanting to go home. But He has a plan and wants to do something big. yesterday I eat a candy bar and fruit( I am not suppose to eat any suagr but vegtables) althoug it was good
for a short time, it caused my blood suagr to go up. So the sweetness that I enjoyed wasn't worth the hurt is caused to my body. Also yesterday, I was with a friend he said something that upset me, I said something back that was unkind becasue I was upset. The whole day I was upset over what I said. I wanted to cry. Before I really didn't care. WhaT I said wouldn't of been look as that wrong, But God knew my heart.
The biggest God keeps showing me, to hate my sin. To not love it in anyway.
anyways brother I will, faithfuly be praying for you. I am in the prayer tent Fridays, saturdays sunday, monday maybe thursday. I will put this on a prayer card so I will pray. If not I will forget. May God put you on my mind.
We have freedom in our sins.
Charlene