ok first i would like to say i wrote alot on this subject because i want everyone to know how much, if it is a sin, that i am trying to stop and how i have been praying and yet i seem to fail... i want everyone to know that this is so important to me because of all the guilt i am in each day and i know only god has the power to help me stop... ok i have a question that i dont even know if this has been asked here before, but im a guy and its a question about...well i dont know how to ask...ok im a guy and its something almost all guys do which is sexual to themselves.. it seems like 98% ive read do this, and some would argue that this practice is bad. i think it is a sin because of lust that goes with this practice. I dont want to do this anymore since i strongly agree it is a sin. the problem is that after like 4 days of not doing this i woke up the 5th night like 5-6 in the morning in very horrible pain. i wasnt even filled with lust it was just the pain.. i prayed and was able to go back to sleep, but when i woke up i was in the worst pain which lasted for a good amount of the day but i kept praying to god and overcame this. that night i was in misery but prayed and still fell asleep...the 2nd time this happened it lasted with me all day and i couldnt take it...i know jesus suffered a horrible death, but i sayed all this because maybe its not a sin, and if its not a sin then im suffering for nothing. I want to give this another shot, but im so scared of all the pain that will come after a few days and waking up ealy mornings because of the pain.
