But holiness can be learned only at the cross
This is a painstaking lesson to learn, but one that we must, if we are to mortify lust [i]God's[/i] way. This is coming from a brother that has tried to learn holiness from reading the Bible cover-to-back multiple times, from memorizing entire chapters of scripture, from trying to "work something up" in the prayer closet, from exercising staunch willpower and determination, from attempting to manipulate my thought process, from fasting twice a week, from [i]preaching holiness[/i] in the pulpit and [i]repentance[/i] on the street, from surrounding and inundating myself with the sermons and writings of other holy men of God, from coveting the prayers of others, to meditating on the blood of Jesus to cleanse me through and through, and to basically anything and everything under the sun to help accomplish the killing of lust and the cleansing of my heart to usher me into a holy, God-intoxicated lifestyle.
But I found that none of the abovementioned things could keep my heart right for long. Something else was lacking.
It has taken me years and years of folly and toil to learn the secret of holiness and how the Spirit accomplishes the true mortification of lust through faith. I have discovered that it is by gazing on Christ alone, on the crucified One, on the Serpent in the wilderness. It is as we look soley upon Jesus - the Author and Finisher of our faith - that we are thereby made more and more like him and our inner men are progressively conformed to His perfect image.
It is a sight of the dying Jesus--which kills lust"
I was training my eyes and thoughts to look upon and think on things [i]about[/i] Jesus other than Jesus Himself. I was looking at the distant, victorious crowns, I was looking at the spiritual success by other men of God and measuring my progression by their standards. I was even looking at my own mind and heart, keeping a watch on how [i]they[/i] were keeping watch! I never realized the simple truth was found in just looking to Him.
Well, brethren, now that I've found the object to gaze upon, the rest of my life will be spent on learning how to [i]discipline[/i] my heart and mind and spiritual eyes to maintain a steady gaze. This is easier said than done! This is true Christian warfare, and the fight is indeed for an invaluable cause! I think Satan would try to keep the cross shrouded in the cloak of darkness, hidden from gaze of the sin-smitten. Let it thunder, let the rocks split, but to keep the cross in darkness and occluded from the eyes of the child undergoing temptation is his perogative. As darkness covered the land when Jesus hung dead and cursed, so darkness attempts to cloud our minds and fog our gazes when death-inspired lusts are conceived in our heart.
Learning to look upon Christ is a discipline we all must learn.
Brother Paul