I provide care for an elderly man who is near death. He has cancer of the eye and has lost one eye and the other is being eaten away. I have seen much deterioration since 1999. His life was the life of a homosexual, and he has Cerebral Palsy and his speech is slurred, more so as he is now bed ridden. He knows that he is going to die and I have asked him if he wants Jesus Christ to come into his life and he flat out said 'NO' and shook his head in defiance. Lately, he says that he is seeing a Monster coming into his bedroom and he is terrified. He calls for any of the staff and we come in to see nothing of course. And he cries because he is scared. I feel so sorry for him. I know what it's like to be afraid of seeing something in your room, I've experience it. But I have the power of Jesus name and His shed blood to protect me, he has not.
He has been an Athiest all his life and he has said that he doesn't believe in God. I am sharing this with you all because here is a man that is ready to die, and he is getting a taste of what it will be like not having God in his life.
The world has God in their life, they don't even realize it. They drink water, they eat, they breathe in air and enjoy nature around them, but there is a place that is void of all that. I don't want to get into a play on words, so I will explain myself when I say that the world has God in their life.
It's not that they have Jesus Christ living on the inside nor is it that they are born again without Christ, rather it's the essense of God's creation all around them that makes God being in their life regardless if they believe in Him or not, He is there.
This man that I look after is a fighter, he loves his room, loves this home, and knows that he is going to die. To die without Jesus Christ is more scary then any monster, my heart goes out to him.
I am sharing this because I wanted my heart to bleed a little. Thank you.
