when I called to the lord to forgive me and asked for the blood of Jesus to wash my sin's away and then was I baptized with water did not the Holy spirit come into me and be with me and lead me and help me and show me the will of the father.
If you really repented and believed the Jesus as Lord and Savior that moment the Holy Spirit regenerated your heart and made you a new creature. You received the Holy Spirit after you believed but being filled with the Holy Spirit is something else, it can happend after convertion but doest happend automatically.
When we believe in Jesus rivers of living waters should flow out of our bellies (the Holy Spirit) but thess experiences are very rare today, few people have an authentic infilling of the Spirit.
Personally i've fallen from the first love but i'm fed up with the moral state of my heart and i pray God humble me to the dust, that his Spirit help me to confess my sins and lead me to deep repentace and heartfelt brokeness and increase by faith and give me a spirit of prayer and then for sure i'll be filled with the Holy Ghost and rivers of living waters shall flow out of my belly. God is not a liar his promises are true for us today the reason we are not filled is we dont believe him enough we dont surrender enough deny ourself enough yield enough.
We are happy someday we will go to heaven because we are regenerated born again christians and we know God gave us eternal life the moment we believed but unfortunatly because we dont yeild to the Holy Spirit our lives but to self, because we dont live as overcommers but with the loser mentality we come soon or late to a spiritual and moral state of spirit and heart where we grive and quench te fire of the Holy Ghost and become lukewarm or spiritually "dead". I am myself one of these persons i'm talking about at least about my experiences i dont want to deceive myself or be deceived about my spiritual condition as many sadly do.
May the Lord have mercy with me and many of my brothers and sisters who are is such a miserable state of heart. My heart desire is that we will exhort, encourage and admonish one another on SI to seek the Lord will all of our hearts and may we be vessels of mercy clean and pure that the Lord may use for his glory.
Dont forget that we are brothers and sister in the Lord and members of the body of Christ and that Christ is commming for a spotless bride. Let our oil lamps burn with the fire of the Holy Ghost again, let us not be like the 5 foolish virgins.
Comme Lord Jesus and light us again with thy Spirit, open the ears of our hearts and let us hear your sweet and gentle voice whispering to us the love of the Father, fill us with your presence for your glory.