Having just come from a sermon, I thought I'd poke around in the brains of others that know more than I do about the scriptures, and the practices of the various denominations. And it's not that I'm not willing to do my own Bible research. It's that I don't know what is taught in the various church denominations.
I was taught that Worship is valuing God for Who He is, and thanking Him for all that He has done, in Christ, to save us, and for what He does for us on an every day basis.
Consequently, most days I take Communion after morning prayers...I feel as if it starts my day with God off on the right foot, and leaves me feeling all shiny and sparkly on the inside, like I just sent my heart in for a tune up, lube job, car wash, including being detailed, buffed and waxed, good as new!
And I do value God highly, and reverance Him, in the old fashioned fear sense of the word, which basically says, "This is GOD we are talking about and to."
He's the big Guy...I am less than nothing except in His love of me through Christ, and so are we all.
I often sing one line of a song, over and over, all day long and into the next, because the Holy Spirit has placed in my mind. I hear echoes of music not being played now, unless it's in the Celestial Realm, and is somehow leaking through to me. I talk God, read God, walk God, Sing God, and write God all the hours I am awake, 6 days a week. I take a day off from my work each week to watch movies and read novels! Sort of the reverse of most people.
But I don't know what "worship" is to others.
Am I missing something?
I wasn't brought up in a church, and consequently rarely attend a church. I keep trying, but a good church is hard to find in California! But I have church a lot, everytime I am with another Christian, I simply feel blessed if we get to talking Godstuff. And I know God likes that in particular.
[color=993300]Malachi 3:16. Then they that feared the Lord spake often one to another: and the Lord hearkened, and heard it, and a book of remembrance was written before him for them that feared the Lord, and that thought upon his name.
17. And they shall be mine, saith the Lord of hosts, in that day when I make up my jewels; and I will spare them, as a man spareth his own son that serveth him.[/color]
Talking about God is valuing Him to me. I'm an evangelist, so if I meet up with anyone who's willing to talk to me about my very obvious disabilities (- auto accident - testimony on page 3 or 4 of Miracles that Follow the Plow), I start talking about the miracles He's given me.
I have to assume that God is making something happen through me, due to the effect I have on people, because they take my card, and check out the tiny web ministry I have.
My site is merely a bunch of little articles about Jesus and walking the walk, but the site is growing and flourishing. By this I mean that people are passing the site on to others! I pay for the site myself, and God takes care of me, so I don't need donors. And it really is a very little site, for un-churched Christians or Seekers looking for Jesus, but not a religion or a church. I'm sent to the fallen away relatives of those that do attend church, so they, the Churched, check me out and pass me on, and eventually, people show up. And I don't do the writing - I'm just a ghost writer for the Holy Spirit there, unlike here, where I speak my heart, and ask my questions.
Evangelism is easy for me...God opened my mouth, and I have proof and testimony always at hand! It's great to be still not old, and to have a walker - it's a great conversation opener, for they see the big grin and the five year old playfulness, and wonder who on earth I am, and get curious about what happened to me, at least enough to put up with me, much like my brothers and sisters here on SI.
And I have such fun, at home, in Doctor's offices, in grocery aisles, and with one great street preacher who tells me the best stories! And he's so shiny and clean and bright, and so valuable to me that he tells me where he's going to be so I can come visit him!
But is this worship? Or just evangelism? Or fellowship for the sake of talking about God?
And, although I know a few classic hymns, Rock of Ages, Old Time Religion, I'll Fly Away, Amazing Grace, and so forth, I infinitely prefer GodRock and Contemporary Christian Worship songs. The Godrock is for fun in the car, and the Worship songs...well, they are for worship. You know...Michael W. Smith...Agnus Dei? Todd Agnew...The Thunder Song? As the Deer... by Adore?
I won't listen to any other music...too dangerous. And I do support GodRock (www.Air1.com) because it keeps bad lyrics out of the kid's ears, and out of mine. It may not be traditional, but I am not a traditional kind of person, however orthodox my doctrinal views may be.
For instance, I have a home church in my house, but since I am a woman, I don't pastor it if a guy is around. I don't pastor it at all that I know of, but if I do, it's to other women. I answer questions if someone asks, but I don't knowingly take authority, and I don't teach as far as I can tell. We just fellowship and talk God, and sometimes I sing a new song that the Holy Spirit has given me.
[color=993300]9. I will sing a new song unto thee, O God: upon a psaltery and an instrument of ten strings will I sing praises unto thee.[/color]
And before someone jumps down my throat about how evil all this contemporary music is, many of the songs I sing were given to me by the Holy Spirit, and range from Rap to Country Western, Blues, R&B, Jazz, Torch Songs, and a few really nice Judaic influenced songs, all about God and the Walk and how great He is. And yes, I get lyrics and music both, and have to record it on my old cassette recorder instantly or the songs are lost. You name it, I've got a song about it in every flavor but plainsong. When Dorcas gives verses, I automatically get music to go with them, and it's a lot of fun. So I know that the Holy Spirit likes all kinds of God music. But is this worship?
I was called by God to "Write", and I'm trying to figure out how to best put that command into effect. But worship is central to our lives with God. And I need to be able to explain it to others, so I really need to know what other people do, are supposed to do, and think I should do, and what worship is, both scriptural and experiential.
Blessings,
Forrest
