Wow, my heart is being flooded with things today. I was tossing the idea around about why the Lord would not allow me to pray for "repentance" when I was at a recent music event. It was so very evident that His presence was there so strongly, I was almost driven to the floor. wouldn't this be a perfect time to pray that repentance would flow through the place? But He would not allow me to think this or say it. All I could pray was that His glory would be known to every person- and I know it was. It was all about how He was everything and we were nothing.I was thinking of what real repentance was and then comparing it to surrender. I think most people are willing to be repentant about the sin in their lives- maybe not. But I think that they don't know what they are supposed to be repentant of. Unless they have the Lord on the throne of their hearts (surrendered all) they will have no idea the extent of their sin of self.Repentance is a change of how you think. It is a change of perspective, from seeing yourself as the center of the universe to seeing God as the center of the universe, and trusting your life to his mercy. It is to surrender. It is to throw down your crown at the feet of the rightful ruler of the cosmos. It is the most important change you will ever make.Not about moralsRepentance is not about morals. It is not about good behavior. It is not about "doing better." Repentance is putting your trust in God instead of in yourself, your wits, your friends, your country, your government, your guns, your money, your authority, your prestige, your reputation, your car, your house, your job, your family heritage, your color, your sex, your success, your looks, your clothes, your titles, your degrees, your church, your spouse, your muscles, your leaders, your IQ, your accent, your accomplishments, your charity work, your donations, your kindness, your compassion, your self-control, your chastity, your honesty, your obedience, your devotion, your spiritual disciplines or anything else you can come up with of yours or associated with you that I left out of this long sentence.Repentance is putting all your eggs in one basket--his basket. It's getting on his side, believing what he says, throwing in your lot with him, giving him your allegiance.Repentance is not about promises to be good. It is not about teeth-clenched straining to "put sin out of your life." It is trusting God to have mercy on you. It is trusting God to fix your evil heart. It is trusting God to be who he says he is--Creator, Savior, Redeemer, Teacher, Lord and Sanctifier. And it is dying, dying to your need to be thought of as right and good. -Michael FeazellIf we are still hanging on to ourselves, there is no amount of repenting or sraining to stop sinning that is going to help.We wonder why we continue to do the same thing over and over, why we are not overcoming. When we come to Christ (if we truly surrender all) then it should be "no longer I, but Christ."I live no longer, but Christ lives His life in me. In all of His dealings with us He works by taking US out of the way and substituting Christ in our place.If we continue to become "more of Him" then we will in turn become "less of ourselves". It is our "self" that is in the way. He has already given us the power and ability to overcome sin. It is just that He is not reigning in us as King of all. We are not allowing Him access to all.I always picture in my mind the actuality of me being less inside of me, being emptied out- just an empty vessel- and then me, as a vessel being filled with Him. To do that though, we(self) have to be dead and gone.If we would all do this and continually do this- think of all that we could overcome (or He could overcome for us).But we are content to live in a lower level of faith because we would rather hang onto our own rights, wants and ways- and then keep repenting and trying to "do better".There is something to all of this. More than what I am saying here, I just don't have the words for it yet.I do see why Oswald chambers says "Surrender is not about the surrender of the EXTERNAL, but of the will (the internal, the heart). When that is done, all is done."Just more thoughts...Satisfied in Him alone, chanin
