Roniya’s post was very helpful. I read all posts and (thank you Father) learned how to read all that anyone posts on SI (Advanced search: author). [u]What a joy to see this burdened-for-God man find a focus for zeal with the prayer support here.[/u]
Without the background, Jarona, your post on David Hogan did not make the sense you must have intended. Again pointing out the need for reflection before posting (Thank you Monitor).
Oh my, what a thought to examine our selves through our posts, to see …I am totally broken to think that we are all there is of Him in flesh and blood walking on this earth. One more reason to cry out for revival. How miserable a servant I am. Though I love Him, know Him and hunger to know Him ever more. I think how He humbles Himself to indwell us. Over and over down the corridor of time. Building His Body must be like building a time machine with acorns, hairpins, and discarded toothbrushes. Without confidence in God I would not type another stroke in this post. Sorry, I’ve lost it again. I don’t think I’m one for writing when He has my heart like this.
My heart is to say something helpful. Hard as it might be with our flesh, whatever man’s response is (many saved, no response) taking all to God to hear from Him, before and after is a fruitful way. Jesus showed me that in His Word. Those that labor years without immediate fruit showed me. Those that neglected that and fell to being puffed-up showed me that. [u]I can have confidence in God with you Jarona and with anyone here on SI.[/u]
Much as I dislike long posts, I include here part of what I learned studying Matthew, which says this so much better. Its just from lessons He makes alive in my life that I wish I could more faithfully write out. God used this last year. This is a cut-and-paste from my personal stuff so ….I too am always finding errors.
[i]“[u]For those in Christian leadership[/u]: I have seen a unique sort of depression among pastors, cyclic and some times chronic, when they have not guarded their heart, the new heart that our Lord has enlarged in them. The heart of the issue is thinking on achieving something, a response/goal. This is not thinking on serving. The shift in thinking can be subtle. Sometimes they even think that they are nothing, that they have failed God, if they do not achieve this thing. The change that is needed here has a death of self in it that can be overlooked. The servant simply serves when he brings his Lord the sword. He does not guess, or purpose the objective of the sword. His Lord called for it and he brought it. The servant does not wield it. His Lord does. He has obeyed and he awaits his next direction from his Lord. His joy is in the Lord. What is important for the servant is to know what sword his Lord has called for. That is the servant’s joy-filled gift, given to know and enabled hear. When the battle is hot, the Lord rejoices to call the servant who faithfully brings the very sword He has called for. It is a great release and relief to be a servant. Think on that rather than achieving something that has come to your mind, looking to the response of people to see if you have achieved your goal, and assessing yourself that way. For example: The Lord is Almighty and Good: the Almighty and Good Lord equips His servants to serve. He called for this sword and I brought it and I stand ready for His next call. This is a, “Yes Lord, what’s next?” of revival.”[/i]
[u]([b]Is that our dear Jarona?[/b])[/u]
[i]“[u]Correlate[/u]. Knowing that I am not your judge and the great relief of that which releases Divine Love to others, I know that you are not my judge. This assists anyone to restore me when it is needed. There is little flesh-defending uproar. None of this depends on the other person. Of course, there is even less uproar if truth is spoken in Love. Because we do not always know our heart or the heart of others it is important to take what is given straight to God who delights in our growth and cleansing, and to respond according to His Word. Lesson: Noticing and taking care [b]how we hear[/b] accelerates the death of self.”[/i]
Jarona, I have only little reality experience (read “reality experience” as “application of the Word of God”) when it comes to demons (I prefer the word “imps”). It was not dramatic. In general, as the Light of the Word of God becomes intense in application, any “imps”, if they were there, left. I learned this witnessing hospitalized “schizophrenic” stop being “schizophrenic” after applying the Word of God, dealing with sin as sin, our sin nature, and our new nature (as I had) and not as a spirit of something to be cast out. I am not clear about what else was involved here. Ordinary prayer, the presence of God... I write this because you posted about Schizophrenia. As a mental state it does not seem all that different in kind from those not diagnosed. The need is the same. Without the Mind of Christ, what contact with reality can there be? (Sorry, drifting off topic) Of course, a mental hospital is NOT where you are.
You will love David if you meet him in Burma.
With Confidence in God