Dirk, I believe that you have asked the most important question one could ever ask relating to the essence of what it means to be a Christian. It seems like the answer has all too often been hopelessly illusive. It got either entangled in a “works” philosophy heavily dosed with religiosity, or it got obscured in a web of theological jargon that leaves you scratching your head in bewilderment, wondering, “What did Jesus really mean by “My yoke is easy…. Come as a little child…? What is the new life?” You wonder, Why do simple truths get so utterly complex and illusive!
It took me years to discover the simplicity of Christ’s offer of rest and the joy of living in the power of the Spirit. (and it is still a daily battle) First I had to become aware of just how much I was depending on myself (the old man), and repent of that That was a long process of change. I also had to unravel the simple Biblical gems from the knotted masses in my understanding. And that took time. Really, I give God the praise for that. I could never have figured it out on my own. It was a work of the Spirit – in conjunction with a lot of indepth personal Biblical study and the hard knocks of life.
Others have undergone similar processes as me, and a few have written helpful books – based on their own spiritual journey. They help us get passed the obstacles. Praise God!
Here is one book I believe that has helped many see the biblical truths with more clarity:
“The Pressure’s Off by Larry Crabb. This is no easy believism philosophy (one of the many knots in the web.) Crabb explains the difference between living by works and grace in a way that hits home especially for many who have grown up in the church environment. l have offered the book to various people who were in a similar spiritual quagmire that I had experienced. You can order it on Amazon.com.
Now I share all that, but God may emply some very different ways in your life. Regardless of the means, it has become my understanding that when we get down to the core of good doctrine and internalize it, than the specific issues of life will tend to take care of themselves – ex fear, besetting sin, and so forth.
Based on my own personal experience, I might add that if you free yourself from the need for instant and tidy answers, and the need to have everything get fixed right away you will appreciate the ride better. For the sake of eternity, it’s worth it, is it not!
Blessings,
Diane