can god forgive me

im not even sure where to begin.i am an adulterer and a liar and a fake and a hypocrite and steal from orphans and widows and i just got a co worker at church pregnant and i'm married.no one knows why i stepped down from ministry but i am going to confess everything.please pray for me.i have been a hypocrite for years and i'm so sick of myself i make myself want to vomit for the things i've done.cxan god forgive me?i've really trampled his blood with my actions for years i can't believe i've lived like this.you don't know the half of it.is there mercy for me?

Dear Godknowsme,

I was an adultress, a liar, a drunk, a thief, a blasphemer, and so much more. For 15 years I sank deeper into thinking I'd gone too far and and that because I'd trampled Jesus' blood and there would be no release from my sin and no mercy from Him.

It has been 7 years since my repentence and return. While satan tells you it's beyond hope, the Holy Spirit brings remembrence of the promise of the word of God. The Lord in His faithfulness caused me to see how at the bottom David was in all his deceitfulness and hypocrisy. I believe this was written for people like you and myself. Don't be surprised if some won't even believe your confessions. The important thing is that Jesus really really is merciful.

I have a great burden and obligation to those that have been in my position. If he took me back he will most definitly take you.

I will agree with all those here that you will fully commit to be clean. Oh, you'll never regret it and you'll come out fighting against the enemy for all its worth. May the Lord Jesus give you grace and strength even this very hour.

God Bless, K

Confess, repent, and turn from your wickedness.

I will pray for you, your wife/family and the people that you've hurt. May His will be done.

Your shame, your guilt, your sin is known to God.
Be honest before Him and confess your shame, your
guilt, and your sin. There is mercy at the foot
of the cross and pardon because of the precious
Son of God; because of His righteous sacrifice!!
You must let God work in you a contrite heart
that is grieved over your sin and turn from your
selfish pride and ways. God will forgive if you
truly repent. He will create a new heart and
a right spirit with you. Read Psalm 51.

Hey, I saw this song tonight and thought of you and one other person on sermonindex:

Come, ye sinners, poor and needy,
Weak and wounded, sick and sore;
Jesus ready stands to save you,
Full of pity, love and power.

[i]Refrain[/i]

I will arise and go to Jesus,
He will embrace me in His arms;
In the arms of my dear Savior,
O there are ten thousand charms.

Come, ye thirsty, come, and welcome,
God’s free bounty glorify;
True belief and true repentance,
Every grace that brings you nigh.

[i]Refrain[/i]

Come, ye weary, heavy laden,
Lost and ruined by the fall;
If you tarry till you’re better,
You will never come at all.

Here's an audio version
[url=http://www.theopenlife.com/music/erinalderson/era_volume_5/04_come_ye_sinners.mp3]Come Ye Sinners[/url]

If you want to be saved by his free and gracious gift, and you understand that salvation will mean a life of sorrows over failures, attacks from the devil, persecutions and doubts, and many other costs... and if you believe God gives enough grace to endure all of this [b]whomever He wishes[/b]... then understand that the ones He wishes to give it to are called "whosoever". Accept that today, if God wills, you are saved by His grace through repentance from dead works and faith in Christ. Cease from known sin, because it pleases God. When you fail, cease again. Cry out for grace to show you the way! He is good to all who come.

If it may help you, here is my testimony, which at the beginning sound similar to yours:

[url=http://theopenlife.blogspot.com/2005/07/when-i-was-four-years-old-stranger.html]My conversion[/url]

God bless you.

does god really really really love a person who knew him and then did so much evil like pornography and lying and blaspheming and stealing and lying to steal money from orphans and widows and lying about visions and comitting adultery and manipulating and using gods name to steal peoples faith for years?these are my sins and many more and im ashamed to even name them and i dont want to live this way anymore.im trapped in a black hole and i cant get out.I went to bed last night begging god to forgive me and trying to repent but i love my sin so much and im afraid i am going to just keep being evil.i gave up my begging god within just minutes discouraged that he hates me.i dont even know what to do anymore.how long does it take for a heart like mine so filled with sin and devils to be cleaned?can it be?what must i do to be saved?it sounds so easy to just say jesus come and be with me but i know ive hurt him so badly i even think god hates me with a bad hatred and that he has no love for me at all and that ive crossed the line and he wont ever save me now because of all ive done.i came to this sermon site because i know this is the only place i can ask for prayer and know you will pray for me and i realy need answers to being saved.my flesh knows that i have to give all to jesus but i dont even know how to do that to just give everything to him how do i do that and know i have done it right?

I will pray.

Conviction by the Holy Spirit of God is a GREAT MERCY. It is a real start. Have you thanked Him?

God is Love, that is the basic characteristic of what and who God is, however if indeed you have done these things or for anyone who may have done things like this or other things and reads this I'll post some realities about this christian walk. Confession and repentance is the principle thing, I believe it was Baxter who said that the circle of your repentance should equal the circle of your offense.We know that without faith it is impossible to please God, but our conscience plays a big part in the day to day operation of our faith, (there is a supernatural impartation of the gift of faith, thats not what I speak of here), we need a clear conscience to approach God and sometimes even after repentance and confession our faith seems like it's just not there because our conscience keeps us bound, sometimes what we hear/feel/think, is from our advesary the devil who comes to accuse/vex our souls but often times whats needed is Time. And while the blood of Jesus will cleanse us it seems that Time and Process are equally important to the fixing of the human conscience. You will need to get Godly Christian counsiling and learn to live in the NOW reality of God, Today, not yesterday nor tomarrow, today, "this day I give thee O'Lord", Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses....today...and lead us...today....

There will be conquences to your sins, to be sure because your actions have touched and affected others lives, but you will will learn to lay aside those weights and sins that so Easily beset you (our tackle you as you run this race), as you daily look unto Jesus the Author and Finisher of your faith. So take a fresh hold on Jesus Christ daily. Reguardless of what you think or feel,daily read and think on His written Word and fix your attentions on the Lord's character. Much I could say but I believe that enough. 2Ti 2:19 Nevertheless, God's solid foundation stands firm, having this inscription: The Lord knows those who are His, and Everyone who names the name of the Lord must turn away from unrighteousness.

I met with my pastor tonight and confessed my vileness and hypocrisy and my adultery and my lying.He has loved me and prayed for me and will work with me to see the Salvation of the Lord continue by simply trusting Christ apart from self effort.I have confessed and forsaken my sin and God has had mercy on my wretched heart.I've truly been converted from death to life.The Lord has seen fit to forgive and cleanse me and set me free.Now comes the public confession of many things and the healing of broken lives and counselling.I have wept bitter tears and will continue to do so as I simply "believe God".Please keep me in your prayers as I make many changes and as God allows all of my life that He wants exposed to become exposed.

Praise God, our prayers are with both of you!

TO get things right into the future so that you never go here again you will at least have to understand that everything you have said were not the original sin. These were sins that followed your original sin of neglecting your time and fellowship with God, reading and loving His word. Only putting this right will you be kept. Only loving Him above anything else will stop you from even following temptation.

If you do not put this in place then , regretfully, you will end up here again.

God is giving you an opportunity here - Get back with Him and DO NOT LET HIM GO.

Under grace, godly obedience must come from gratitude for the finished work of Christ, not from a lust for self preservation.

God's promises to the elect are certain,

"He that began the work in you shall complete it to the end."

"He is the author and finisher of salvation."

"I will never leave you nor forsake you."

"All who come unto me, I will in no wise cast out."

"All whom the Father gives to me shall come to me, and I will raise him up on the last day."

"I pray not for the world, but for those you have given me... Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me."

These verses apply to truly born again people, not false converts. True faith is demonstrated by its endurance over time. True faith does not trust in works for final salvation, but in Christ's work. True faith lives a lifestyle that shuns and repents of sin while seeking to show love to others. When you question whether or not you will endure, be reminded that all of the elect will endure, and that Christ provides for and promises their endurance. Be thankful that by God's grace you may continue persevering another day if you have once truly believed. The source of your obedience must be faith in Christ's work, not faith in your faith in Christ.

Once I came home last night after being with the Pastor I went into another room, knowing I had to at least generally (for the moment) talk to my wife. I was scared but the words of my Pastor rang in my ears that I should be courageous and not a coward.So I went outside and sat on the steps with my wife and asked her to forgive me for being a false convert and for being lazy and mean and for not loving her as a husband should. I didn't get into any details as the Pastor told me that at this point it would only be like stab wounds to her but to just talk to her generally.I'm thankful I did.Previously I had flipped out for no reason the other day and threw my wedding ring to her and this morning when I woke up there was a note on the counter with ring and a note saying she loves me.To be as horrible as I was just less than a day ago to now with a headache and soreness and even a feeling of the blahs and a dry feeling inside and a feeling that I have no idea what's next...but I'm saved! I know this doesn't negate any responsibility on my part and that's why I'm asking for prayer.I've destroyed so many people and they don't know it yet but soon will when I need to confess openly at the right time in God's time.I don't want to lose everything but am willing to for the sake of the Cross and I know if I do then I deserve every bit of it and more.My Pastor has a prayer he prays.The Pastor told me God has had much mercy with me not to kill me.I know this is true.I deserve every bit of Hell and worse than Hell.My life was a sham for many years with secret sin boiling up to presently.I wanted to die but knew I'd end up in Hell.I thought God hated meand didn't want me back.And I always knew that dedication to Jesus meant 100% or nothing.Last night I gave 100% and will continue to, knowing that I need to repent every single day and be cleansed every single day and seek Him in prayer and in His Word every single day with a true Fire from God and not self effort that brings torment and despair.Please pray for me.I know I can't do it alone.I know how weak I am and I need God to break me even more.To take my pride and filth away and change me on the inside.