I live in the washingto dc area, and after being saved God has done His work in me through the Spirit. I have been attending a church, i do not want to name it, i would prefer to just desribe it. Let me say that for the first year of my relationship with Christ I was very excited about the church, I listened to 100's of the pastors sermons on a regular basis through an online source in which they are all available, from the first to the latest. I heard a sermon one day which troubled me, the pastor said that a professing Christian, saved by God, could spend a life in adultery, drunkeness, and sin with his eternity in heaven being secured. Basically faith in Christ covers all sins, which is true, but isn't the truth in the bible that faith in Christ frees us from sin? The first thing that popped into my head was, why would a new creature, with the Holy Spirit live a life in such a way, how can one be saved from sin while being enslaved to it?? Well I spoke to some fellow church goers and they stated that given his experience(30 years) and the level of the church with its board of members and elders examing everything(11,000 members), what he said was probably accurate. After spending more time in the scriptures I saw God speaking clearly to me about this matter through some of pauls letters and more specifically 1 John along with the gospels. Then by Gods grace, I was led to by a fellow brother to this website, and I have heard reidhead, ravenhill, wilkerson and others. As time passes on and I heard more of these godly men I have had difficulty attending the church and hearing the sermons, I dont know If i have become puffed up on the truths God has revealed to me or whether I am feeling the genuine anguish God feels about this church and others. No one weeps, no one cries, everyone is smiling all the time, I never hear sermons on conviction repentance and judgement, only a mention of it with constant message of grace. The air in the church is one of a social nature, not one of God fearing Christians, do not know it that makes much sense.Very rarely I hear things on the sinfulness of sin, condemnation, judgement and hell, nothing offensive. Never hear things on false converts, nothing trying to awaken or weed out those dead in the audience, as we all know, there are many in every church. The most sinful of people attend and walk out as they entered, no one trembles, none of the members of the church are called out and challenged with regard to whether or not they are in the faith. The pastor at times tells unbelievers to say a sinners prayer, and he then tells them that if they meant the prayer about Jesus coming into their lives they were now breathing eternally, I dont get this and I am a baby in Christ, a little more than a year in my rebirth. It makes me angry, like I said maybe I am puffed up, but I feel like something is missing, something is wrong. I spoke to this about an older church member and to my surprise, he was like yea so what, repentance and conviction is not needed for grace to come,just believe, a person can live as he chooses under grace,enslaved to sin or free, etc... Do not get me wrong, the sermons are informative and have much truth in them, I enjoy them, but I feel like people who go here have this sort of attitide, which is, say uhuh to various fundamental truths, agree here agree their and you are saved, nothing on brokeness and repentance and conviction and rebirth and the sanctification of the very Spirit of God,(only mentions of it) just say uhuh, uhuh, uhuh, read the bible come to church, be in the fellowship etc... Basically, agree on fundamental biblical truths,be aware of them, study them, live a Christian life etc.. but not much on the power of the Holy Spirit in the life of every man or woman of Christ. Kind of like how Paul stated, holding on to forms of religion, but denying its power. Can anyone relate, is there anywhere to go in this area to feel the Holy Spirit confront and visit you when you are hearing a sermon? or am I taking this too serious.
