I need some very well advised councel.

Im so confused about what to do. I smoked weed recently (three times total) i was trying to get into a spiritual realm, i was hoping for the weed to do that, it didnt.

i told my mom, she had a fit over it (which was expected, sorta) she wanted me to go to this program that i was in for 8 months and ended up leaving before my commitment was over. which i dont feel i made unto the Lord, the whole time i had wanted to go home, after my 8 months, but i was offered to stay another 4 months, i thought about it, prayed a little bit, was in a service and thought the Lord was telling me to stay for it, but i ended up leaving, pretty much right when my 8 months was over.

But now, my mom called the director of the program, and i was talking to him, and he says that i need to go back to finish my commitment, and basically that its the only way for things to work out for me, he says i need to man up and make the decision to go back.

I know i cant be smoking weed, i don't plan to anymore. But I'm confused about is it the only way for things to be right for me to go back to this program, does God have only one way for us, when were called, does he want us at a specific place, and if were not there, is that living in sin?

I wish i could just go before the Lord and have Him tell me what to do, but that doesn't seem to work, as of yet.

any counsel would be well appreciated.

and he said soemthing very strange, at least i took it that way, he said i want to see you in heaven, like im on my way to hell.

Matt,

I am still young, so please seek the counsel of other godly, older men. But...

I'm assuming you are still living under the authority of your parents? If so, the Lord has already told you what to do (in the 5th commandment) - it is really their decision if you go or not - regardless of whatever feelings you may have. If you are not living under their authority, Proverbs says that the wise man will do what is good for his soul. What decision will be best for you - eternally?

One of the things that brought more stability and encouragement to my life was understanding that the Lord speaks to us through the Bible. Not our feelings.

I would advise to strongly meditate and believe on the gospel, sin, atonement, propitiation, and all other concepts revolving around the cross of Christ. Understanding the gospel in a saving way will be the only way to be free from the bondage of sin. Many may speak of more "mystical" methods of sanctification, however, sanctification is not as easy as they suppose. Daily (perhaps small-steps) of meditating on the gospel of Christ will be well for your soul.

Grace to you,
Taylor

MattC,

I know i cant be smoking weed, i don't plan to anymore.

Matt, you didn't plan to smoke on smoking weed when you left your program early though did ya? And yet it happened, so don't say, "I don't plan on doing it anymore." Because chances are, it will happen again.

Let me ask you this... If you really thought the Lord was telling you to stay, why did you leave? This is what amazes me (about me) and other people... when we KNOW that God is telling us to do something, we lean on our own understanding and defy the Lord and do the exact opposite of what He says! It gets us into trouble every time!!!

I like what Taylor said, "The wise man will do what is good for his soul." and "The Lord has already told you what to do."

Then do it.

PS: Stay far away from your old friends, do not return their phone calls, you owe them nothing ...they will always take you where you have always gone.

MattC,

Remember, you must always do things God's way (Isa 55:7-9). Smoking weed isn't the way to encounter God. You may experience something spiritual, but it will be fake, evil, & ungodly (Ex. 30:9).

Based on what you said, I think this program is a Christian one. I would encourage you to go. But before you are finished with it, you to know God's direction for your life (Romans 12:1-2, Eph. 2:10).

Where does God want you to live?
Where does God want you to go to church?
What does God want you to do for a living?
What kind of ministry does God want you to be involved with?
Who is going to be your mentor when you are done?

I would go and get to know God and His voice better.

LoveGodsWay2

I wish i could just go before the Lord and have Him tell me what to do, but that doesn't seem to work, as of yet.

Is this question essentially whether you should honor your mother's wishes or not?

I'm not sure how old you are, but if your mother would like you to finish, then the Lord doesn't really need to talk to you directly. He has already asked you to honor your mother and father, and what she is asking is worth honoring.

And really, how unpleasant can the program be?

By now you have figured out that using drugs to alter your consciousness is a door that leads to trouble, not to God.

(edit: Good job on getting counsel before your next move.)

Blessings,

MC

I am under the authority of my mother, she would like me to go back, but she ultimatly left it up to me to decide, and i decided no. but i do see how it could help. the envirnment would be great for me, living with other brothers going through the same things. hm.

MattC: [i]Im so confused about what to do. I smoked weed recently (three times total) i was trying to get into a spiritual realm, i was hoping for the weed to do that, it didnt.[/i]

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MattC: [i]I wish i could just go before the Lord and have Him tell me what to do, but that doesn't seem to work, as of yet.[/i]

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MattC: [i]any counsel would be well appreciated....and i decided no.

and he said soemthing very strange, at least i took it that way, he said i want to see you in heaven, like im on my way to hell.[/i]

Did you ask this person what he meant?

Hi Matt!

Thanks for posting. I know some of what you are going through, not that I struggle with smoking pot now, but it was a pretty long struggle at the time.

In regards to this whole issue, I don't think any one of us should forget that "the spirit lusts against the flesh and the flesh against the spirit, so that you may not do the things that you please [want to]".

Not knowing you, Matt, I will just make some comments about myself and several others I know who have had a battle with pot and following Christ. Some were successful and some not. Because of the above verse, there is almost definitely a part of you that wants to stop smoking weed altogether. There is also another part of you that doesn't, but really wants to get high again. Romans 7 might apply here.

First, I do believe that God is really guiding your life through your mother. However, I am not big on programs. So, application one, I am going to guess your mother's main goal is to see you stop smoking pot, however that happens. I am guessing that her primary goal is not this program, but the results she is hoping for. Application two, with or without the program, you need a deeper encounter with God. One like you are going to have on the brightness of the last day. You need to sit before the Lord and ask yourself if you are going to smoke pot when the judgment books are opened. You need to ask yourself if you want to smoke pot for all eternity. I am not trying to give you a hard time, so please don't misunderstand me. Jesus said no man can serve two master, so it really comes down to getting a sense of which master your heart is really with.

And my heart goes out to you, brother. I understand these types of struggles, and the Lord understands also, because "he was tempted in every way as we are, yet without sin." However, in the end there is still a choice. If anyone smells more of marijuana weed than the aroma of Christ, Jesus seems to indicate there will be no entrance into the kingdom of glory.

Finally, the best thing you can do in your relationship with God is to cultivate what God has to fill your life. If God is just "stop smoking pot", that is so lame that no Christian would be interested. Jesus has something that is so captivating you will never want to get high again because you might miss it. God can transform your life into something that he can use in amazing ways. Lots of testimonies about this. Look to the light of Christ to light your pathway in this, brother. All the best.

Alright, i had much counsel, i know the Lord wants me to go back into an envirornment away from the world, back to the program i was talking about (U-Turn for Christ).

Im off tom. morning. =/ im nervous and scared for going back, hm but i know the Lord has good plans for me, as for us all.

What a glorious time it will be when we are all together in eternity, until then. God bless.