Welcome Gavelle,
You are not alone as you can see that there are others that have been through many of the same things that you have, maybe to a lesser degree.
I thank God for this ministry. I praise God that He led me years ago to begin to question the teachings on prosperity. The hundredfold return was being taught, and I never believed this message as it was taught, that for every dollar that we sowed there would be a hundred fold return. I began to see that these teachings were based on "give to get". It really does appeal to the lusts of the flesh. I praise God that I had a confrontation with my pastor years ago over finances. We left that church and about 15 years later, the pastor sold the large church to another ministry, pocketed the money, because the church was in his name, divorced his wife, and moved out of town to resume his ministry in another state.
God has true prosperity for His people, but the true riches are in Christ Jesus. The true riches are in knowing Him. "My God shall supply all of your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus."
May the Lord continue to reveal Himself to you as your provider for everything that you need in life.
Mike
"Seduced From the Faith" - Christine Beadsworth
1Ti 6:6 But godliness with contentment is great gain.
1Ti 6:7 For we brought nothing into the world, and it is clear that we can carry nothing out.
1Ti 6:8 But having food and clothing, we will be content.
1Ti 6:9 But they who will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts which plunge men into destruction and perdition.
1Ti 6:10 For the love of money is a root of all evils, of which some having lusted after, they were seduced from the faith and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.
Doctrines of demons subtly introduced from the pulpit seduce people away from the true faith and cause them to focus upon something other than Christ. One of these doctrines perverts God's idea of prosperity and encourages believers to harness their faith in order to feather their own nests. What a perversion of the gospel of Christ this is! The true gospel calls us to die to self while the gospel of mammon calls us to adorn self with material possessions. The advertising industry is undergirded and energized by the spirit of mammon and the love of money. We must be alert to the inroads mammon's doctrines have made upon our belief system.
Even the current teaching that there is a huge wealth transfer coming to the church (because the wealth of the wicked is stored up for the righteous) is luring many into looking for their proverbial ship to come in, instead of looking for the extension of the Kingdom of God. Contrary to what many proclaim, the church does not need more money in order to advance the gospel of the Kingdom. What we need is more believers who are willing to be conformed to the death of Christ, that they may operate in resurrection power!
Prayer: Father, I can see how easily I am tossed about by every wind of doctrine. Help me to move on to maturity and leave behind the self-seeking behavior of teenage Christianity. Bring me to a place of godly contentment with my lot, amen