Hello dear people,
in our pursuit of God and holiness I think we face many dangers and many hardships. The greatest one being maybe the revelation of our true selfes and our self-rightouesness, even after having walked with the Lord and wanting to really know God and live a holy life with all of our hearts.
I simply want to confess that inspite of all my efforts, I am a terrible failure. We all „know“ that and we theoreticelly agree with these truths of our own inadequacy but it is something different when everything you had clinged too in terms of „my“ devotion, „my“ whatever is totally and absolutely failing in reality. Not in terms of comitting great sins...but simply realizing that what I am before God is total wretchedness.
So, maybe we could encourage each other. When we really want to please the Lord we are prone to create our own holiness and try reflect that standard to the outside...even though on the inside we might be desperate. So, I want to simply confess that in spite of my very best efforts and seeking God with all of my heart...I am a total failure. I hope this encourages other people who may feel the same way. You are not alone and the Father knows. He is the one bringing us to that point so that „no flesh shall glory in his sight“. The only hope we have is Him and his mercy. None of us is any better than the worst, carnal church that we secretly like to look down on so that we feel better in our own so called „holiness“...
And yet, I can rejoice because Paul says that he is „pleased with his weaknesses etc...“ ...in my weakness His strength is perfected. The secret is to find ones pleasure in Christ alone. Not in what I perform but literally in Him alone. May we come to that place where we are willing to lay down all of our secret pride and find everything in Him.
Daniel
