Jesus my rest.

Repentance has made me a broken man before God, as I surrendered my life to Him. It was summer in the cool of the evening, I was in my garden. It happened while I was on my knees digging around the raspberry bushes, while I was in prayer.

I was overshadowed by the Presence of the Spirit of God. In that moment I felt His deep love rest upon me… an indiscrible release and rapture in my spirit, accompanied by peace and joy that only comes from the Holy Spirit...it felt as if my innocence was returned to me in that moment before God, and indeed it was, as the Blood of the Lamb was sprinkled over my sins.

In that moment I humbly looked up into heaven and I worshipped Him who made the Heavens and the Earth. It was in that moment that I decided that I would love the God of heaven forever… I decided this, and I told Him so.

In that moment I understood the beauty of the Lord, His magnificence and His majesty; I felt my soul knit to the Lord. My soul loves Him above all else in this life, for He is my lot and my portion forever. In that moment I understood Him in the depths of my spirit; I cried out to the one who formed me from the dust of the Earth and I said to Him…I will love you in my heart forever. I made my abode with Him, and He came into my heart and He made His abode with me.

My mind is continually upon Him...His anointing remains with me. I feel His Spirit continually drawing me...and my heart loves Him above anything else in this world. It is hard to put such things into words because these things are Spirit. I love Him in my very soul; in the very center of my being...I cannot explain it. I extol Him above all things as standing before Him.

I yield to your Spirit Lord Jesus, that I should love you in this way. I desire you above the love of women; my soul yearns and thirsts for you because I am born of you. I choose to love you in my heart, for you are beautiful to me, I love everything about you...your gentleness, your kindness, your long suffering for me, this list goes on and on...Oh to worship you in your beautiful glory, in the beauty of holiness. Oh to behold you...how my soul is transformed into your image as I worship you...Oh to be as you are my Lord and my King. To be like you, to be your son is the greatest gift and reward of love...to have your beautiful Holy Spirit in my soul changing me into your image.

My heart is tender and contrite...melted within me, by the holy fire of God's love, as wax before the Flame. Oh how I love and extol the living God!! Oh how pleased I am with Him!!

With deepest humility I want to state I am grateful that the Lord has saved me, and washed me from my sins, and that my name is written down in heaven!

I gladly accept your calling on my life oh love of my soul...with the joy and communion of the Holy Spirit.

With humility of spirit, meekness, unpretentiousness and modesty, your pure and Holy Word burns inside of me with indescribable and unquenchable fire and zeal; I love, worship and extol you oh living God of heaven…beyond all else in this life.

How beautiful.

Words just seem so inadequate as He softly falls upon those that are His.

I know that this is preaching to the choir, but I watched a video today that I found very stirring, but before I post it I want to share something; I shared it before but it needs saying again.

God truly wants the repentance of man; He wants good works towards Him based on a loving personal relationship, and not on good works based on a reliance of oneself… or ones' ability to live holy by following a given set of rules – and yes there is a difference.

Yes, there are moral rules and guidelines to follow and understand, but they are only to instruct me in the ways of righteousness and holiness as I seek Him inwardly, and they teach me of the nature of Jesus.

The scriptures give me an understanding of the nature of Him who has called me out of this world to be His son, to a new life in Him which is hidden in Christ - the Holy Spirit bears witness to this truth.

His good works in me come, not based on my own understanding of what true holiness is, but rather based on the inner workings of the Holy Spirit in my life since I accepted Him, and it is in my yielding to Him in all things, and not on my adherence or reliance to seek His favour by doing good works. It's not what I can do, it's what He does through me.

Because I love Him, because I love Him in the very pit of my soul I will seek out those things that always please Him, if only that I may have just one moment in time that I may glorify Him…this I will do as His Holy Spirit who is within me permits, and teaches me all things. These that I have written down are the inner workings of the Holy Spirit within me...

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17

For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision avails anything, but a new creation. Galatians 6:15

Hence and therefore my salvation is not based upon me believing that my good works toward Him will save me, but rather on a total surrender and reliance on Him, that He who has begun a good work in me will complete it until the very day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6

I just need only to yield to Him, and say yes Lord.

And do not present your members as instruments of unrighteousness to sin, but present yourselves to God as being alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness to God. Romans 6:13

Repentance is a rocky road best travelled in the day, when there is light, lest darkness comes, and I stumble in the dark...that is to say the Spirit of God will not always strive with man. I will therefore humble myself before the God of heaven and pray, who has called me...to walk this road of repentance..that leads to eternal life.

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