Beloved Sister in the Lord,
When you first believed you were SEALED, with what is called the holy spirit of promise. You have this gift sealed up inside of you until the day of redemption.
Eph 1:13 In whom ye also trusted, after that ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye were sealed with that holy Spirit of promise,
Eph 1:14 Which is the earnest (TOKEN) of our inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, unto the praise of his glory.
The day of redemption, is the day that Jesus comes to gather together all those who are his. At THAT TIME, the seal will be opened, and the Lord will look at what is really in your heart and what you did with your life.
2 Cor 5:10 For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ; that every one may receive the things done in his body, according to that he hath done, whether it be good or bad.
People do not totally change overnight. Though we have heard stories of this, this is not the "norm". Rather it takes time, and learning of the Word of God, to overcome sin, and learn to walk righteously before him.
We slowly become transformed.
Rom 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
The word transformed is a Greek word which meant metamorphis, as in what a catipillar goes through to become a butterfly. You have issues, sins and contrary thoughts in your mind that you do not even realize.
You have strongholds in your mind, that you do not even realize are there, and again this takes time in learning with the Lord, and living life to overcome them.
2 Cor 10:4 (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;)
2 Cor 10:5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;
Many Christians do not realize that the moment they believed on Christ, they entered a real WAR. So when the enemy comes along and tempts them and get's them to fall, they are totally unprepared for it. They think they lost their salvation.
But the truth is, you are given and assured of salvation, if you keep coming back to and following Jesus, even though you may fall. A baby has to learn to walk, a baby Christian has to learn to walk with the Lord, and overcome sin. Babies fall, but keep getting up and trying to walk. Even mature adults fall from time to time.
Keep this scripture as the apple of your eye. Listen to it, commit it to heart, and follow it.
John 8:31 31 Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed;
John 8:32 And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.
Those Jews, he was talking to, had just finally and initially heard enough of his words, to make the decision to believe on him. But then he told them they must CONTINUE in his Words.
To continue means to live, abide and dwell in his words. By this they would become disciples (disciplined ones), they would eventually come to a knowledge of the truth, and be set free from the sin in their lives.
Being set free from the sin in your life, is not just continuing to sin, and then saying Jesus paid the price for it. Rather being set free from sin, is learning how to overcome sin and QUIT the sin. And it is not living a lifesyle of 'habitual" sin.
We have an enemy, and his main purpose is to tempt and lead us into sin. Part of learning the truth, is also learning about this enemy we have, who so easily temps our old man nature and draws us away into our own particular sins.
But as we learn of Christ, and resist the devil, and the temptation to sin, by putting on his commandments, sayings, and words, we receive faith and power to overcome that sin, and walk in righteousness instead.
God gives you SPACE, and TIME to come to repentance. But do not take that grace for granted, to purposely continue on in your faults. Seek the Word of God, keep your head in the word, and most of all PRAY, that you enter not into temptation, and that God will help you to escape. For as Jesus said: The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. So we must watch and pray every day for God's strength and guidence in overcoming these things.
You have not LOST your salvation, you have just begun your salvation. And must now that you have believed work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. You must come to a knowledge of your Lord, by daily reading of the gospels, and spend time with him.
If you sin, which you will, if you confess you sin, he is faithful and just to fogive your sin and clease you from all unrighteousness. But never take him for granted, and never sin presumptuously...as in..."Oh well God will forgive me."
God loves you, and he's given you all the tools and knowledge to be victorious, but it all takes time. Receive his gracious forgivness, and move on to run that race that is set before you, looking unto Jesus who is the author and finisher of your faith.
Here are some more scriptures on this subject to ponder.
2 Cor 4:16 For which cause we faint not; [b]but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.[/b]
Col 3:9 Lie not one to another, seeing that ye have [b]put off the old man with his deeds;[/b]
Col 3:10 [b]And have put on the new man, which is renewed in knowledge after the image of him that created him:[/b]
You don't do this overnight. And it's not a ever just a DONE DEAL, for any of us. You can ALWAYS go back...ALWAYS. Or you can as some who claim to be "saved", never do it at all, and yet claim they are "born again". These are those who write you good words and fair speaches telling you not to worry about overcoming or quiting sin.
The inward man is renewed according the the knowledge of the Word of God, that we MUST put in DAY by DAY. If we go a few days, we get weak and can sucomb to sin, or fall back into the ways of the old man.
Rom 8:21 21 I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.
Rom 8:22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man:
rom 8:23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.
Only by staying [b]IN CHRIST, which means to stay in and abide DAILY in his words, by reading and meditating on them, do you receive POWER to obey them.[/b]Then you will not so easily succomb to that old man nature which lies latent within your human body and mind.
Running with you, in the Lord Jesus Christ,
El Harris
NOTHING we ever did BEFORE we came to or believed on Jesus Christ, could make us good enough to receive that holy spirit of promise. Both those who naturally walked very righteously and those who are great sinners, and all those inbetween, are in the same boat, before Him.
ALL must believe on who Jesus Christ was, the son of God and that God raised him from the dead. At that instant of innitial belief,you receive a spiritual cleansing by God through his spirit.
But AFTER this is when your work begins. For regardless of how wicked you may have been before you came to Christ, he now expects you to LEARN to walk worthy of what he has done for you, and called you to.
THIS TAKES TIME! You have habbits and strongholds in your mind, that are contrary to what Jesus Chrsit taught is "right" or "righteous". He will reveal these things to you as you walk through life.
Many times we fall into sin, because there are things in our hearts the Lord is trying to show us, that we need to deal with.