Hi, I was brought up sort of knowing right from wrong but always had great fear and was contemptuous with gods word when I met my now husband who wasn't a Christian and thought if I got married it would be ok before. God. Even on my wedding day we had problems being left behind for our own reception etc attacks from family members and I foolishly never thought that he was not intended for me but a test and a temptation but I still love him as a good man and my husband but the fornication only with him ever but before marriage when yes I had been ignorant of the extent of dangers etc didn't know demons could come in when you are in sin act but I knew about asking god to show you a picture etc I remember a wholeness in Christ couple who my mum took me to and because they were family friends, when they asked me what did I think I'd done for this to happen, immediately sleeping with my husband came to mind and fear came in and I realised it but didn't if you know what I mean, prob my thoughts that it was ok now coz we married over ore that. I obviously needed to confess with weeping etc before God but my relationship with him was not at that stage and I had been on a DTS with "YWAM and seen others being ministered but did not know how closed I was and not aware of my sin but thought I was good I suppose. Over four years and come to think of it, beyond I have been having the most uncontrollable things happening to me, at first I kept ending up in hospital with heart going out of control and my poor mum had to keep coming up to be with me, then at night feeling unimaginably ill but to tell anyone where, I could not tell. Pains, my nails suddenly scratching myself but it's not me doing it. Clumsiness, almost not being able to see out of my eyes, so dim and dizzy, can't function. Terrors on every side. Teeth biting down on tongue or nipping the back tendon to my tongue, makes me cry out and my children have been tormented and bible verses saying I have tormented my children so it is tormenting me, but the tormenting has been by the uncontrolled force and am so desperate as I lie on my bed anticipating worse hell even than this. Throat muscles make me feel like I have hairs down my throat and I gag and am sick with the terrors that I face and the dear children face but they cannot understand what is happening to me. I am sure if one person had said to me the eternal consequences of your continued sin and not enquiring of me would destroy me and my family then I I would surely just have made a stand before I married him but have now read what the church and mainly God requires of us. The feelings of being unsafe and falling off cliffs, in theatres, falling off high buildings or off the world are what only devils experience and that is what is happening to me. Voices say headless to me and awful sick stuff and it's frightening me, terrifying me, telling me I am the devil incarnate etc when I wake, well once it did,and I have dogs biting my face as I fall asleep or I drown or slip over and it is unbearable and it told me I would not see grandchildren or my children ever again as I would be gone in one day as Isaiah says in ch 57. I never knew I had fallen so bad with this one relationship and then his family always attacking me and controlling my children. A prophet said I was going to go down a very dark path and in my pride I thought he was cussing me but I must have picked up this false spirit when I stupidly saw my friends spiritualist husband to check on my liver with his doctor lay device as I thought it was just like what the hospital would do. He then began to pray over me with such innocence but of course he doesn't know but I freaked out and vegan praying against his prayer but as I had been living in sin unconsciously I was not protected. Anyone help!!! Bible4life what are u experiencing?
