Dear Brother,
Mark 4:36 And when they had sent away the multitude, they took him even as he was in the ship. And there were also with him other little ships.
37 And there arose a great storm of wind, and the waves beat into the ship, so that it was now full.
38 [b]And he was in the hinder part of the ship, asleep on a pillow:[/b] and they awake him, and say unto him, Master, carest thou not that we perish?
39 And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.
40 And he said unto them, [b]Why are ye so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith?[/b]
Jesus did not loose sleep over it, and he probably saw it in a much greater degree than we do.
Psl 127:1 Except the LORD build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the LORD keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.
2 It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he giveth his beloved sleep.
To be "vain" in this sense, means not profitable.
How can you have joy in the Lord, when you are anguishing over those whom you think may be lost. It is not anguish, but the "joy" of the Lord that is our strength.
God really does not want you to anguish in this manner. It is unprofitable for him and for you. You speak the truth, or as Paul said: You plant and water, but only God can give the increase. If God is not giving the increase, then you cannot agonize over it.
1 Cor 3:5 Who then is Paul, and who is Apollos, (or who IWantAnguish) but ministers by whom ye believed, [b]even as the Lord gave to every man?[b]
6 I have planted, Apollos watered; [b]but God gave the increase.[/b]
7 So then neither is he that planteth any thing, neither he that watereth; [b]but God that giveth the increase.[/b]
8 Now he that planteth and he that watereth are one: and every man shall receive his own reward according to his own labour.
9 For we are labourers together with God: ye are God's husbandry, ye are God's building.
10 According to the grace of God which is given unto me, as a wise masterbuilder, I have laid the foundation, and another buildeth thereon. But let every man take heed how he buildeth thereupon.
Do you know who is responcible to build, once the foundation is laid? The "INDIVIDUAL". That is it is each of our independent responcibilities to build the truth into our lives.
11 For other foundation can no man lay than that is laid, which is Jesus Christ.
12 [b]Now if any man[/b] build upon this foundation gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, stubble;
13 [b]Every man's work shall be made manifest:[/b] for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try [b]every man's work of what sort it is.[/b]
14 [b]If any man's[/b] work abide which he hath built thereupon, he shall receive a reward.
15 [b]If any man's[/b] work shall be burned, he shall suffer loss: but he himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire.
16 Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?
17 [b]If any man[/b] defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy; for the temple of God is holy, which temple ye are.
So you see here that some shall receive a full reward, others saved by the skin of their teeth, and others destroyed. That is just the way it is, and every man shall prove his own work.
You are only responcible to speak the truth. To loose sleep over what is God's responsibility, in giving the increase, is to anguish in vain. Maybe you need to change your user name, to something like "JoyIntheLord 2009", or something more condusive to what God really desires for you.
That you have a heart for these people is great, but not to the point of loosing sleep over them. As it says, the Lord gives his beloved sleep.
God bless you, and I hope you find the peace of Christ. As he said "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you. Not as the world gives, give I unto you. Let not your heat be troubled, neither let it be afriad.
Regards,
El Harris