Dear brother, all I can say is that you MUST rediscover the power of the New Covenant. It is not your inheritance as a Son of God to partake of only the sorrows of the Master. You are also called to partake of His Bliss and Joy. One without the other will kill.
John the Baptist (the last and greatest of OT prophets) came singing th funeral dirge of the Old Covenant. Jesus came, however, playing the flute of joy and holy mirth! (Matthew 11) Our lives need not be typified by disilluionment, anger, resentment, morbid introspection or any other such gloomy vice. This is not the lot and predetermined path of the "revivalist". The great bliss given us in Jesus Christ enables us to both mourn and weep at the same time. It is like Adam's calling to "work the ground" whilst "eating freely" from any tree in the garden. ONLY "eating freely" would have resulted in selfishness; ONLY "working the ground" would have been a curse. In fact, that WAS the curse pronounced upon Adam! To work the ground whilst REMOVED from the Presence of God in the Garden of Pleasure.
Once our labors become divorced from Divine pleasure, spiritual death is always the natural result. Remember, the Lord never muzzles the ox while it is treading out the grain. Even though God may have called you to painful intercession and agonizing prayer, He has also called you to partake of hilarious joy and eternal pleasure!
The great intercessor John Hyde, who DEEPLY partook of the Lord's sufferings, would also, intermittently break out into hilarious laughter and joy--even while agonizing over souls! The Lord has more than enough joy and pleasure available to sustain us in all things! Anguish alone cannot and will not sustain a man. You have a deep love for God and a heart that is pure in many ways--but divorced from the pleasures found in Christ, anguish and sorrow alone will bring spiritual death.
Just my thoughts,
God bless you my dear brother!
Jeff