Joyful_Heart
Mar 14, 2010
Thank you dearest Saints,God is working in my heart. All is laid in my Father's hands. Once my treasure was in my inheritance. I didn't realize it at the time. And it would be nice to have as I would be able to give and do things I cant now. But it has turned sour. I am seeking first the Kingdom of God... And turning my eyes on Jesus and the things of earth will grow strangely dim. I don't say this to be cool. But because this is what the Lord is doing in my heart and I thank Him from the bottom of my heart as it has caused me to draw close to Him, caused me to trust Him no matter the outcome, to not allow it to rob me of my joy and peace and it tries. It is causing me to love where I could not before and so much more. Psalm 27 is so much God's heart to me at this time and to contemplate on it using the Hebrew cant be compared to. And just because I have given it all up in my heart doesn't mean I will have anything. But I do have more of my Lord than before and nothing can be this rich or exciting. So I must say thank You Lord. Yes, where my heart is is where my treasure is - and it is more Jesus than it was before all this. All Glory to God. As a dearest sister says, "created for His good pleasure". I also want to confess before you all and repent of my complaining of being in a land that is flat, brown and to me ugly. The Lord has me here and not so busy so I have time to sit at His feet and I have complained about not being in the lush green trees, the mountains, waterfalls, steams and rivers that I am accustomed to. I am a nature photographer and this has been hard. So, please forgive me Lord and I say thank You for this time with You it has been rich and the work You are doing in me is priceless.
I appreciate your kind words and powerful prayers saints. Not prayers that I shall have worldly inheritance but that I stay close to Him and show His love and light. He is my Provider, my Attorney, my Physician, my Everything. The Father and Jesus have nothing else to give us. They gave it all. If my family ask, I will give it. They can take it all but they can never take me away from Jesus, only draw me closer to Him. I just pray to stay close to Him. Jesus is the lover of our souls and of that we are so thankful.
Joyful_Heart
Mar 17, 2010
Thank you all so much for your words to me. It was so confusing to me on which way to go. And we know where that comes from. To turn the other cheek, to give my cloak also when they ask of me or to fight. You are so right about coming out of the woodwork!!! And have they come a running. You would think it was Fort Knox!!! I have fought about that too about what Mom really wanted no matter who was involved. So sad to think of making a will and people can come in and do what they want. I did see a lawyer and their lawyer set it up with so many loopholes that now it looks like my step-dad has complete control. Even that which was left to me in a trust he can do what he wants with it. And the folks lawyer is also his nieces and nephews lawyer. That is scary! I did get her jewelry and my great grandmothers paintings. I know without a doubt that she wanted me to have it and for that reason I will fight to keep it. I will just take one day at a time and continue to hang out with my Lord and enjoy Him! Love with the love of Jesus - hard at times but with His help I can do this. I do feel bad for my Mother even though she is gone. She would be fighting Irish mad if she were here and in her right mind! So would my grandpa! So In that I do agree. But I am limited on what I can do besides pray and stay close to Him - So, I pray all repent and think about standing before God and being accountable. Love in Him to all. And thank you for your words of advise. All have been so helpful. ps. I would not mind the beautiful desert!