"Brothertom, why are you assuming that I am going out of the church because I want some
glory you may attain by being a missionary or some mighty leader of men to the Nations as a missionary
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Brother, did it not occur to you that maybe it hs nothing to do with my position or anything else for the matter but the glory of God? Did it not occur to you, brother that maybe the reason that I'm thinking of leaving is because Christ is not being glorified and that this brings me pain?"....jiyouk
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Referring to this in post down below by me. Brothertom:
"Forget about the glory you may attain by being a missionary or some mighty leader of men to the Nations as a missionary. In the end, we must yet be redeemed, and we will realize that it is all of grace, and that there is nothing good in ourselves anyway, except the glorious spirit of the Lord Jesus."
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"I'm sure the Pastor there does not want to see the church split. He may be counseling you for your own good, to keep you from shipwreck. This split may or may not be from God, but remember, things don't change inside your heart because you become a "missionary". Your influence upon the kingdom of God probably will not change one bit from being in Milwaukee, or Mogadishu, from being in the choir, or as an "apostle to the Nations."
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jiyouk wrote:
"I dunno if you've got influenced by calvins view of "calling," but brother, the Lords calling everyone to be missionaries. To throw away that net you've relied on and follow Christ by faith. He's looking for people who are united with him in heart toward the lost."
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I never said forget about going to the Nations for Christ. I said forget about the glory you might attain. It is in the nature of youth and religious zeal to be presumptuous. Often the zealous do passionately love Jesus, and want to throw away their lives in bursts of extravagant service to Him, and do not know of the Price.
Without learning of the Cross, the deadly force we must attain to to become like Him, to resurrect in His glory, right now in this mundane world of responsible American life....[ bills, teenagers, taxes, marriage, babies that like to eat...], we will not endure the sustained hardships of missionary life...where great demands are set upon you day and night.
This was not a personal exhortation to you; but a warning, or consideration in light of the circumstances you wrote about. Personally, I hope you do Go to the nations. Start out small; say a month at a mission outpost in Africa [English speaking..]. Get some hands on experience ministering to people one on one, pray for the sick, and preach Jesus to the lost. This would be a wonderful thing. Then, take it from there.
Some of the most useless and hardened Christian ministers I have met call themselves Missionaries. I am not impressed by titles. I have RARELY met a "missionary" that had the fruits of love and mercy. Of course, they portray themselves to here in America in their fundraising tours.
As far as Calvin goes, I have never read a thing by the man, and only learned how GA-GA people got over him here...on Sermonindex, recently. Then, I studied him a little. Not for me.
As far as everyone called to be a missionary? I'll go with your... " He's looking for people who are united with him in heart toward the lost." word.
I have given every Earthly thing away I own, more than once, and abandoned myself to the nations more than once....with the hope of ever returning to America resting in His hands ...alone. I have left to foreign countries not knowing a soul there, or where I would land, to preach the gospel. I have led many to Christ with baptisms, and many who had never heard the name of Jesus once before.
I have suffered some, got really sick, ran for my life before, was an inch of being robbed and killed ,and was in peril by Islamic radicals who believed murdering me was a glory for them. I suffered extreme loneliness, attacks from government agents who waited patiently to arrest me. The worst of it all though , were the major DEMONS who rule in the cosmos who came against me in manifest ways, and in general ways through the religious crowd.
In India, I witnessed the Holy spirit visibly fall on those who heard my words, and saw Him enter them, to be saved! I saw great joy fall upon many who committed to baptism. I saw real healings.
In China, unannounced and by night, the true persecuted underground church came to ME!...in a small hotel room 1000 miles inland, near the ministry of Brother Yun. They were haggard and weary, and beautiful. they wanted comfort, and my word. I washed their feet, and did what I could. I never got their names, nor do I want to. They trusted me, and Christ in me, with their lives. This was all done by faith, and prayer, with no human intervention.
I did not take a camera, nor take a penny from another by solicitation. There were times of glory. yes. There were months and months of agony and depression...feeling like a dead dog at night, and Peter the apostle in the day. It was odd.
Anyway, at the end of the day, here I am again, another faceless, semi-carnal American. An unprofitable servant. I weed the garden of my heart often, and trust me, I need a major plowing to break up my fallow ground.
My best for your all for Jesus, my brother! go for it!