Precious Spirit of God. Its been a while now and I am sorry for ignoring you. The last time we were close I was going through many trials from losing my father to my believing for fruit of the womb (even though it should be physically impossible) to healing me from a life long illness you were always there and never let me down. I’m sorry that I got too familiar too soon and took you for granted. I guess it wasn’t intentional it started when I put you on the self and started to pick up books on the various isms from Calvinism to Pentecostalism and to every other scism under the planet I was so hungry for knowledge that I forgot true knowledge was intimacy with you. I argued for hours thinking I was serving you. But I realise I wasn’t doing any good if you wasn’t there with me by my side. The other day I discovered a butch of old lover letters you wrote to me one line said that God so loved the world that he sent his only begotten son. You told me how you would never leave me or forsake me. You told me how I didn’t need any man to teach me that you would teach me all truths. You assured me that you had given me all things that pertain to my eternal life and Godliness and I had totally forgotten and been searching the works of men for what you had freely given. My testimony had become lifeless and powerless. I remember when you used to be there with me and you did the testifying when you would reveal the hearts of men to them and convict them. I got arrogant and full of pride and didn’t give you all the glory. But I thank you that though I am nothing but dust though I fail you time and time again you do not fail ,me. You persevere with me everytime you chastise me I am better for it. I will seek you diligently and I know i will find you because you said in your love letter that you are a rewarder of those who diligently seek you. Mould me as you see fit and bake me in your holy fire.
