Hi codek,
As Brothertom very well said:
I doubt whether a new Bible is the answer to your dilemma, but a new approach to the Bible possibly. Begin to read the Bible as an act of worship; to feed in Pastures that your Heavenly Father is delighted to meet you in. Read it in it's simplicity; and return to the gospels, and the parables....praying as you go asking for His heart.
I suspect God's been speaking to you, and showing you how He knows more than those who promulgate certain doctrines.
Probably you are trying to find the 'doctrine' with which you are familiar, supported by scripture. Ha! That's a tough one! Snippets maybe, but whole doctrines? No. Often, it seems that a carnal mind has been at work, filling in the gaps God's word does not appear to explain. However, if you go looking for what God actually says, you will find Him giving you the definitions (keys) to make sense of HIS attitudes and the assumptions which govern other of His words and actions.
In contrast, most 'doctrine' carved out by men, leaves some of the rock behind. The more I've read the Bible, the more I've wondered if the people who make up doctrines EVER read the WHOLE Bible. It's clear they've read some of it, but it does seem to be selective (often).
The moment one notices all other stuff not fitting with the 'doctrine', it inevitably throws one off a previously held course, and requires the essential renewing of our minds - many times.
Norman Meeten (Find him in the speakers here.) once said, 'The moment you think you have all your theology settled, along comes God and upsets the applecart.' I've found it true. God knows how much we like to depend for our security on a sense of having everything under control; whereas He wants us to be depending on HIM and His LIVING word for every breath and thought, and to glorify Him no matter what circumstances our lives - in His infinite wisdom - encounter.
If you read the New Testament carefully, the references to how and what we should believe, and do, are very clearly stated. (Rom 10) Much comes from the teaching of Jesus Christ Himself, and references to that teaching: 1 Cor 8:2, 1 Tim 6:3 If any man teach otherwise, and consent not to wholesome words, [even] the words of our Lord Jesus Christ, and to the doctrine which is according to godliness; 4 He is proud, knowing nothing, but doting about questions and strifes of words, whereof cometh envy, strife, railings, evil surmisings, 5 Perverse disputings of men of corrupt minds, and destitute of the truth,
Then, there are keys stemming from when Paul was converted from being a seriously violent, unbelieving Jew, (Acts 9) into one who was desirous gently to NURSE the Galatians back into new life after they'd been 'bewitched' by false doctrine. The moment when Paul corrects Peter is also instructive, and, Acts 10, when God gives Peter a universal lesson in how to think about all peoples.
I think you'll find more clues here also:
Acts 2:41 Then they that gladly received his word were baptized: and the same day there were added [unto them] about three thousand souls. 42 And they continued stedfastly in the APOSTLES' DOCTRINE and fellowship, and in breaking of bread, and in prayers. 43 And fear came upon every soul: and many wonders and signs were done by the apostles. 44 And all that believed were together, and had all things common; 45 And sold their possessions and goods, and parted them to all [men], as every man had need. 46 And they, continuing daily with one accord in the temple, and breaking bread from house to house, did eat their meat with gladness and singleness of heart, 47 Praising God, and having favour with all the people. And the Lord added to the church daily such as should be saved.
Eph 5:21
Confusion as a condition, according to the Bible, accompanies those who do know God, or God's word, or God's ways, and who at the same time, are battling internally with some other god's grip of their mind, or grip of a practice (or lifestyle). Deliverance from the confusion comes, when - probably with God's help - the decision is made to abandon worship of the other god, not matter what form that worship has taken.
God is very faithful, and gracious, as He bears with us in these stuggles. He is certain (and I can testify) that He can deliver, and there should come a moment for the struggler, when he (or she) can agree with God on that point, take the step, and keep hanging on until there has developed a history of that deliverance in the believer's experience, by which he can testify of God's power to save.
Only the Holy Spirit promotes the Truth. Every other spirit is a liar.
EDIT: to support the above last statement:
Leviticus 18:1 And the LORD spake unto Moses, saying, 2 Speak unto the children of Israel, and say unto them, I am the LORD your God. 3 After the doings of the land of Egypt, wherein ye dwelt, shall ye not do: and after the doings of the land of Canaan, whither I bring you, shall ye not do: neither shall ye walk in their ordinances. 4 Ye shall do my judgments, and keep mine ordinances, to walk therein: I [am] the LORD your God. 5 Ye shall therefore keep my statutes, and my judgments: which if a man do, he shall live in them: I [am] the LORD.
27 (For all these abominations have the men of the land done, which [were] before you, and the land is defiled;) 28 That the land spue not you out also, when ye defile it, as it spued out the nations that [were] before you.
If they could do what God said without the indwelling Holy Spirit, we have no excuse.
Love not the world. Rom 2:29
Rev 3:16 It's not about our doctrine, it's about 'you', me, us, and whether our relationship with God Himself is pleasing to HIM.
