I am sat on my chair late at night i am physically exhausted im completely drained. Nothing left in the tank. My pregnant wife is trying to get my attention but at this point my ugly fleshly side rears its ugly head. I respond "please i am tired" there was only a 10% increase in the sharpness of my voice but it was enough. She goes about doing something else and i can see the disappointment in her face. i feel like Christ wouldnt have behaved that way so i begin to mentally torture myself still the Spirit shows up and puts me straight (corrects the source of tireness). Then my heart is filled with joy. Anyhow she asks me about bible study. Things were said to which i knew their was no scriptural presedent and i knew was erroneous but was too frightened and intimidated to say anything as i felt that i would become the subject of and elders harsh sermon.
The Questions:
1. Can one have fruits of the Spirit without being baptism of the Holy Spirit.
2. What do you do when the gifts are not really allowed and you cant really fulfill office without the ministration of the Spirit at your church how do you teach these things in love.
Testimony
The devil you can defeat by standing on the scripture like jesus. But we christians these days, boy?
It seems like the art of discernment and listening are no longer in existence. Seems as if we are more eager to speak than to listen (Rainman). More eager to chastise than to be teachable ourselves. when i realized the lord was leading me to be more teachable myself before looking at others it was hard, often you want to speak but then, you are told to hold peace.
yesterday i began to see why the spirit would have me hold my peace. An old lady in study preached one of the most profound messages i have heard in a long time. She was speaking literally to me (not directly) but it was so simple, so gentle that i received some much needed direction it was so incredible. She has no knowledge of greek or hebrew was only filling in because pastor was away on holiday and i dont think she could even string 3 verses together when pressed but after reading scripture and she spoke i could feel the power of God in the room for the first time in bible study.
(Yes i know some of you will say women should not teach). I realised that we are there for each other (as a church) she had taught me so much and was probably oblivious to it. But God had things he wanted me to learn before i myself would teach (i think this should be the case for us all)
It reminded me of when paul said "our gospel did not come to you with words only but with power"
Without the power of God(Holy Spirit) backing teaching it is a human endavour which fails to produce fruit. But when the breath of God is in our very words the gospels becomes so simple and so effortless. If we cannot explain the gospel to an aborigine with ease and simplicity what use is complicated and confusing theological dialogue?
I can almost imagine john the baptists face when jesus showed up for baptism. what humility Jesus showed we see the same thing in philipians christ was really humble. Did he show up and the age of 30 and bash everyone with "the word" or had he been deligently growing under instruction of the law and proclaimed to the very people who he had probably listened to that the scripture was fulfilled in thier hearing.
Im still new to this SI thing but sometimes the tone of bickering is really dis-heartening we seem sometimes to be so puffed up that our pride will not let us be still. The way we sometimes insult each other with such harshness doesnt seem anything like the fruits of the Spirit maturity in christ produces. Like the word says in Ezekiel 34 the lord will judge sheep amongst sheep. those here who are spiritual is it a spiritual thing to "muddy the water" and prevent the weaker sheep from drinking and grazing?
