I suffer in the West more than I did in the communist lands.
My suffering consists first of all in the longing after the unspeakable beauties of the Underground Church, the church which fulfills the Old Latin saying Nudisnudum Christi sequi (naked, follow the naked Christ).
In the communist camp, the Son of Man and those who are His have nowhere to lay their heads. Christians there don't build houses for themselves. To what good? They will be confiscated at their first arrest. Just the fact that you have a new house can be a greater motive for you to be imprisoned, the communists wishing to have this house. There you don't bury your father, neither do you say farewell to your family before following Christ. Who is your mother, your brother, your sister? You are, in this respect, like Jesus. Mother and brother are for you only those who fulfill the will of God. As for the natural ties, can they count any more when it is a frequent occurrence that the bride denounces the bridegroom, children their parents, wives their husbands? It is more and more only the spiritual connection which remains.
The Underground Church is a poor and suffering church, but it has no lukewarm members.
Tortured for Christ pg.79
