I have a question, and would appreciate someone who has understanding in this area to please help me to understand, or direct me in the right direction to get it for myself. Please be gentle with me because I am learning. I feel that I have to state this because as I have been searching through the posts lately, as I am still kind of new, I've noticed that some are becoming intolerable of some of the things posted, and it has me kind of self-conscious about asking questions that some may feel to be... I don't know... ignorant, lame, etc. I state this out of love and being a "newbie" on here.
Since my conversion, I have pretty much live, and breath reading the word, praying, and fasting. There is not much more that I do outside of these things other than work, and take my kids back and forth to school. I have been battling myself over whether I can still do things such as, going to the mall (since I got a couple of gift cards for Christmas), take my children out to eat (like I did last night with a friend and her kids, but because I am not sure if I should be doing something like that, I felt guilty and confused over why I felt guilty), or even go out on a date. My birthday was on Dec 30, and because all I desire to do is please God, I don't want to do anything that may not be pleasing to Him, so for the most part of my b-day, I stayed at home and slept most of the day until I started feeling really lonely and sad that no one called, or even offered to do anything for me. So, I ended up calling a (girl)friend, and went to the mall to eat and a movie.
At first, I didn't feel guilty, but later I wondered if I was sinning or displeasing God because I decided to do something outside of spending time with Him in reading, meditating, and praying. I'm starting to go a little "stir-crazy" along with my children out of feeling that a true child of God does not do things like these and I must stay at home away from worldly influence reading, and praying. Is this correct, or am I causing undue challenges for myself?
There are idols that I had when I was very much caught up in the world, such as my earrings, and make-up, which I would get from "the mall" and any other make-up, or jewelery store. However, since being saved by God, I don't have the desire to spend my last and do crazy things to obtain those things, but because I once did, I have told myself that I can no longer go around or into the places that have those items.
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE SHED SOME LIGHT ON THIS ISSUE FOR ME BEFORE I GO CRAZY. BUT, WITH GENTLENESS PLEASE =) FOR I HAVE A SINCERE ISSUE THAT I AM NEEDING HELP WITH FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE MATURE AND SEASONED IN YOUR WALK WITH GOD.
Thank you in advance. For, I'm sure that God will touch someone's heart just as He has before concerning me. God Bless you!
