Well, I can say, with much trepidation that I do not understand very well the idea of God as Father. I very much try to take all the blame for every ounce of my own owned sin, but I had a "dysfunctional" upbringing. This is nothing new or particularly special, many in our day have, since the family bricks in the foundation of our culture are shivering under their immoral load, legions of children are being raised without fathers. This is not a cry for sympathy from me, but just a statement of fact; I have no idea what having a father is like. (It is a bit uncharacteristic for me to speak this way, I am just being honest since you asked.) Therefore I tend to see God as God, and the Father aspect is...difficult for me to comprehend. Being raised the way I was, I have a tendency to lack compassion on suffering, and can tend toward seeing God as judge when things go wrong. I have always been resigned to accepting what comes in life as being...the will of God. It has been difficult for me to see that there is a "Fatherish" sense to God's will for my life that tends to slip through my fingers quite often. By that, I mean, I have a very hard time accepting the fact that his will toward me is like the will a father has for a son. Though I believe it technically, doctrinally, theologically, and any other ally you can think of. When the rubber meets the road in my life, I really struggle with God being a Father that cares about me. I know he has proven it through his son, and he has proven it to me personally time and time again, and I believe he is perfect in every way. Please do not take this as me questioning God in any way, I am confessing to you and the whole world, that there is a subconscious brokenness in my humanity that I still perceive is in serious need of mending. My wife would agree with me completely in this.
One of the way's this tends to manifest in my life is I generally have a lack of trust for men. Men in leadership, men in general. I can tend to question the motives of men, which is not healthy, as this is God's realm. So my paradigm finds a magnetism to men like John the Baptist, and Jesus in the Temple with the money changers, or Elijah on Mount Carmel. I can be attracted to these "paradigm's" in a natural way, which is not necessarily spiritual.
I have come to understand that I can be affectionate towards certain biblical concepts in a carnal way. As I have considered these things, along with Jesus admonition to the Pharisee's that it is out of the abundance of the heart that the mouth speaks, I am vastly more aware of a "foothold" the devil has had in my life. That foothold is to emphasize certain truths to the exclusion of others. This is kind of difficult for me to explain, but there have been a few times where a slightly false teaching caused me to be offended in my youth as a believer. As a result for a long time I would preach against that particular falsehood on a regular basis because I wanted vindication about it, and I probably felt that if I got enough people to agree with how wrong that "false teaching" was, then maybe I could somehow countermand the wrongness of it all. I suspect though that this is not really the mind of Christ. He only did the things he saw his Father doing. I want to learn to do only the things I see Christ doing. Please just take this all as a confession...