Ever consider how much it means to Father when we decide to REALLY trust Him? There's a lot riding on that decision for us, but there is also a special gift in it for Him! What else do we even have to give Him?
"Abram believed the LORD, and the LORD considered his response of faith as proof of genuine loyalty."
Gen 15:6 NET
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This was sent to me and I was so touched by this simple question. Truth is I have not ever considered how much it might mean to the Father when I decide to "really" trust Him, or how much it must grieve Him when I walk in fear, worry and doubt. I was thinking on this much this morning and felt very convicted of the sin I have allowed self to walk in for some time now. I have used the excuse that "I" struggle with fear, with worry and so some how because I was struggling it must mean that I was trying but not once had I ever consider how deeply this sin in my life must hurt and grieve the Lord. Every time I doubt or give in to worry its as if I am saying "God your just not capable of caring for me, your just not able to really meet my needs or help me through." Its as if I am saying to Him, "God I just can't trust you this time the problem is to big." How that must hurt. After all that He has done for me it must grieve and hurt Him terribly that I still continue on in this sin and still will not believe and trust Him. If I truly loved Him there would be no doubt at all that HE has the very best for me and I can trust completely with out worry, with out fear. God has done so much, shown Himself so often to be the loving Father who cares for His children, over and over again. There is no excuse for doubt. I am ashamed of myself for my lack of faith, for my lack of loyalty toward my Lord. I know that HE forgives me and even in that I am seeing again HIS faithfulness! I know that there are struggles still coming, I know that there are times when in my flesh I may falter and look at the situation for a moment but in those moments I know He will be there still and that I can in faith walk with HIM! I now there is much work to be done in my heart and that my heavenly Father will see it through, but as each lesson comes and I am faced with the decision to trust and have faith, I pray I will always remember the sorrow that my fear and doubt causes Him and flee from it!
God bless
maryjane
