ChadIt is wonderful to have you on Chad. I hear your message all too clearly. Brother RobertW has said everything very clearly. I just want to add one or two points but, you must read what Robert wrote as well as this.To begin, if you are concerned about your spiritual health that is a very good sign…warning flags should go up when you do notice sinful behavior. The Holy Sprit convicts men of sin righteousness and judgment. If you feel bad and have a concern about “trampling the name of Jesus”, give God the praise because there are many who do so but do not have an opportunity to see it. God is considerably more patient than you may realize. He did not choose anyone because of their saintly qualities, but because he could make some adjustments…The first step after conviction is confession. A prayer that centers on nothing but confessing how wrong we have been is very important for spiritual growth. Although the prayer does not have to be very long, you have to be entirely focused and truthful. In addition, it is important to praise God for having his Spirit reveal this to you; this is an act of great mercy from God. I assure you Chad He did not show you this about yourself just to see how bad he could make you feel but because he is concerned about you and your spiritual health. God communes with everyone differently so I am not going to tell you how to seek him for it is in you already (the Spirit will guide you into all truth). I will tell you to be instant in prayer and confession. The moment you feel bad, is the moment to pray earnestly. This the Spirit drawing to God. It is very difficult to submit yourself to prayer at such times but this where the battle lies and where it is either won or lost. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst after righteousness (Mathew 5) Chad, Jesus Himself has ordained it.Consider Proverbs 24:16 Though a righteous man falls seven times, he will get up, but the wicked will stumble into ruin. If you fall Chad, get up and ask for forgiveness. God will help you but you must continue to get up and not wallow in self-condemnation. Jesus came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance and this respect all have sinned and fall short of God’s glory. For Jesus to work in you, you must be submissive and to admit that you have weakness in certain areas, if you try to adjust your behavior yourself you will not have any freedom from bondage. God does not expect anything from you but submission He will produce the righteousness. Still having said all that, your road to salvation is different to mine. Do not let the Devil sidetrack you on trivial matters. Remember, Abraham believed God and it was imputed to him for righteousness… do you believe God can fulfill his promises? Pray my friend, pray very earnestly and very often.Philippians 2:12-13 12 Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. 13 For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.In Christ James