This is a classic example of why we should be very careful to the swearing of an oath. ["the commitment"], but we all have done so from time to time, to our own hurt.
The righteous man is one "In whose eyes a vile person is contemned; but he honoureth them that fear the LORD.
"!! He that sweareth to his own hurt, and changeth not.!!"
You have sworn to your own hurt...but what makes it even weightier, you have sworn to fellow believers in Christ. This should never mean that you should remain in an activity that causes you to sin, that you have committed to, or see your conscious violated .
Basically, as I see it, this has become more of an inconvenience to you, than a conviction. You could easily take some sleep time away from yourself, for more time with the Lord, and wedge every second possible into your family, and gut it out to keep your word.
It matters that you keep your word, a lot...Thus the admonition: ABOVE ALL!:............James 5:12
"But above all things, my brethren, swear not, neither by heaven, neither by the earth, neither by any other oath: but let your yea be yea; and your nay, nay; lest ye fall into condemnation.!"
You risk falling under condemnations, and possibly by weaker brothers that you made this commitment to. 11 weeks is not long at all...Bear your cross, and ask God to make up the difference in family life and devotion, and I bet He will...and keep your word.
You ought to express yourself, without complaining, to your companions in this organization, in love, of the whys that you do not agree upon.[ [Knowing you, Krispy, you have already done so in your meek and indirect way...lol..;).
I think you would feel better about yourself...and have a fully clear conscious in the matter.
Job 31:5-7
King James Version (KJV)
5. "If I have walked with vanity, or if my foot hath hasted to deceit;
6. "Let me be weighed in an even balance that God may know mine integrity."
Keeping our word, and HIS, to the very best of our ability, is a central part of what integrity is. It is the pathway to Godly Character..which by faith will bring about wide open doors into Heaven....
P.S. It's been a joy to meet you on this forum, and I appreciate your desire to walk with God in a pure way....Tom