Endzone, I read your long post - testimony. I sense in you a heartfelt desire to know the LORD. However, in reading it some questions keep nagging in my mind so I thought I would just put them out there for your consideration. You may not know the answer either.
You declared that you were able to minister in the power of the Holy Spirit while deeply involved in immorality. From your testimony, I do not doubt you were empowered by a spirit but are you certain beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was the Holy Spirit?
You know the devil will work to mimic God at every turn. Paul warns us about the devil appearing as an angel of light. He says that if this angel will preach a message contrary to what he spoke he is to be accursed! Gal. 1:8.
In Galatians 5:16-25 NASB we read:
16 But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh.
17 For the flesh sets its desire against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are in opposition to one another, so that you may not do the things that you please.
18 But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the Law.
19 Now the deeds of the flesh are evident, which are: immorality, impurity, sensuality,
20 idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, outbursts of anger, disputes, dissensions, factions,
21 envying, drunkenness, carousing, and things like these, of which I forewarn you, just as I have forewarned you, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,
23gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.
24 Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.
25 If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit.
From these scriptures it would appear to me you were not empowered by the Holy Spirit although it would seem so on the one hand. But when you went out and fulfilled the lusts of the flesh with no impunity it leaves me wondering about your comprehension of what spirit was empowering you.
Mind to comment?
Blessings.
ginnyrose