please pray for me

I have been drawn to this site for a few years and listening to countless sermons and reading the discussions.
I have been so hungry to know the fullness of God and yet I feel an emptiness in my soul. When I try to explain it to people I get the strangest looks and I feel so alone at times. I want God to do for me what He has done for people in the revivals of the past. It seems as if everyone is pretending and trying to convince themselves that they know God and the power of His resurection. I don't know if I am not saved or am not baptized in His Spirit, or what. I know this seems like a bunch of random thoughts but this is basicaly how my mind has been for three years. If you are moved to do so, pray that God will reveal Himself to me and that He would give me faith to believe. May God Bless

Dear timg,

I have been where you are in the Way. Be encouraged, looking not at others, or at yourself, but to the Lord:

"Look unto me, and be ye saved, all the ends of the earth: for I am God, and there is none else." Isaiah 45:22

I am praying for you. :O)

Be well!
Doug

I understand... I seek the Lord for you....you are not alone...

Thank you all for your prayers and your verses. They mean so much to me.

Dearest Timg,

I am so blessed just hearing all this Blessed counsel for you here.

I too,will be praying for you.

Much grace and peace to you,

In His love,
Elizabeth

thanks again for your encouraging words from all of you. I will continue to hope and look to Christ to fill my desire in my soul.
One question though, Is it a sin to be discontent with my spiritual state? When I try to explain the hole in my heart I am told that I should be more thankful. "In everything give thanks...". I am honestly not looking for some emotional experience. It just seems as though I am missing something. Does this make cense? I am told that I should "just be content". But when I try I feel as if I am just settling for something less than what God intended.
I am sorry for my bad spelling and grammer. Please excuse me.

timg wrote:
I have been so hungry to know the fullness of God and yet I feel an emptiness in my soul.

(edit) This is not some emotional experience! This is a way of life.(/edit)

God bless you,
Lisa

Jesus said:

"And I tell you this, you must give an account on judgment day for every idle word you speak." -Matthew 12:36

If He hears every 'idle word' and we must give an account of it, how much more does He hear the cry of a child (YOU) who is calling out to Him? There's a bunch of places in the Gospels where Jesus says "I thank you Father that You hear Me..." He hears you, no doubt about it.

He also said "Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled." -Matthew 5:6

He is not a man that would lie, what He says, He will do. Be patient, seek Him and you WILL get what you are asking for!

Additionally, if you would be so kind, please write us and let us know when this happens!!

Oh how much I want to be filled with His Spirit, yet I am so confused by teachings from even the times of my youth. I have read that portion of Acts over and over and yet I am so filled with doubt over the baptism of His Spirit. Is it really for me? I want to expect it. Yet I am still filled with doubt. If it were tears that produced this filling I can assure you, I would be filled. Should I pray for faith. Have you recieved the Holy Spirit? Was there a transformation in your life? I want to be a new creature.

One question though, Is it a sin to be discontent with my spiritual state?

I would like to share Brother Zac Poonan's testimony. When he was young he prayed to God that he is ready to even wait for 10 years if that is what it takes for him to receive the real Baptism of Holy Spirit. Not that Baptism that many television preachers are deceiving people with but a true experience (like what you have quoted). And God made him wait exactly 10 years and then he received the real baptism that he was looking for based on scriptures.

According to me, the proof of you being Born again is having the seed of God that will always convict you of your everyday sin and bring you to repentance, it will put a longing in you for a victorious life. And one day this longing will be fulfilled when you receive the Baptism of Holy Spirit.

Oh how much I want to be filled with His Spirit, yet I am so confused by teachings from even the times of my youth. I have read that portion of Acts over and over and yet I am so filled with doubt over the baptism of His Spirit. Is it really for me? I want to expect it. Yet I am still filled with doubt. If it were tears that produced this filling I can assure you, I would be filled. Should I pray for faith? Have you received the Holy Spirit? Was there a transformation in your life? I want to be a new creature.

Brother,

It’s for you, if you want it. What are you confused over? Teachings that you have previously been taught compared to the Word of God?

The Law is our schoolmaster that leads us to Christ but that SAME Law led Paul to persecute and kill the Christians. This same word of God if not led by the Holy Spirit can lead us to the same thing. What Paul did was count all the Jewish teachings that he had been taught AS DUNG that he might gain Christ and we must do the same thing too (edit: we must do that same thing with our previous teachings).... “for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Phil 3.8)

FOR THE PROMISE IS FOR YOU and for your children and for all who are far off, everyone whom the Lord our God calls to himself. (Acts 2.39) (edit: Peter wasn't talking about salvation, he was talking about what happened in the previous precious hours that occurred in that upper room!) Only believe, brother! And rest assured the Lord has called you to Himself or you would not even be asking!

Email me and I will send you some mp3’s of sermons that might help you.

God bless you,
Lisa

Praise the Lord,

Isn't it just like our loving God to show us our needs?
And w/ that then Hallelulla, I give thanks. Thank you Lord that you show me also I need more of You.

And don't we always need more of HIM?

Bless you brother for your courage to say the Truth!

I too am asking for more of HIM.

I'm also so very thankful for this site. I find the honesty, Gods love of everyone very inspiring.

He is present here and I am so thankful for His true church showing up and doing what he has called us to be.
Loving in truth, edifying, longsuffering, considering the needs of others above our own, I could go on. That's what I've seen. Bless you dear saints.

My thoughts and forgive me for not giving the references.

"Open thy mouth wide and I will fill it!"

"Ask and recieve that your joy may be full"

"seek and ye shall find and knock and the door will be opened"

continue to be encouraged, keep reading (His Word)
Thanks for sharing, Sis -k-

Dear timg,

A famous old time preacher once said that the abiding Witness of the Spirit was for all, yet all do not have the same experience. Yet the glory of the witness, no matter how manifested, was as clear and undoubtable to the believer as when standing in the full light and heat of the noonday sun...

My dear friend, I myself was praying some years ago, and suddenly, and without warning, a lifting up of all burdens and a rushing presence of the Love of God filled me all within. And yes, I did say "Abba Father!", over and over again, and even when I closed my mouth, the refrain repeated still in my mind. It went on and on for some time...

I had not been praying for "the Baptism of the Holy Ghost", or asking God for power or gifts or even a blessing as I recall. I was simply praying to God; pouring out my heart, THINKING ON JESUS, and praising Him...

My dear friend: believe. Believe that Jesus died FOR YOUR sins, and that God raised Him victoriously up again from the dead, thus CONQUERING YOUR death too.

"Turn us again, O God, and cause thy face to shine; and we shall be saved." Psalm 80:3

Be well, and look to the blessed Saviour.
Doug

Thank you again for all the comments, verses and prayers. It is so encouraging to see true christian concern and love for others. In my heart I know that He promised us that if we believe in Him and the words that he said out of us would flow rivers of living water. I want the rivers not the trickles. Judging by the comments that I have read you are experiencing this very blessing. I will continue to seek Him who promises to give water that will quench the thirst that is there. Bless you all for your encouraging words.

Know that you are not the only one seeking 'this gift' of God (Baptism of the Spirit). I have seen the last year a real need in my own life for Gods presence and reality that's missing at this moment. I know I am born of God, but I lack power and boldness and brokeness to be a through witness for Jesus (even though I am giving bible-study to family-members). Friends of mine to are getting stirred that there is more then we now experience!

Brother, let's pray that we may be filled to overflowing with Love, Power and Holiness! Let's pray until God moves in ways we haven't seen yet! He wants you to receive it more then you want to receive it!

dear timg,

I was blessed by this.

"The Neglected Person Of The Holy Spirit"
http://www.preachtheword.com/video/index./php

God's love, sis -k-