Hi John,
I know that it can be hard when you are a new christian.
You are eager to please God and do what He says but you get confused by what other people are doing. You start to lose your peace and get frazzled and you think that maybe God doesn't hear you. And that maybe He has a purpose for everyone else but you. That you are only a baby Christian and then make you feel guilty and others that are in the body of Christ make you feel bad. Maybe you did something wrong? Why doesn't He hear me? You may be asking yourself.
John, don't let the enemy take away your peace. Don't let churches and what other people do confuse you. Don't even worry about them or judge them by what Jesus says.
Right now, Jesus has eyes only for you. Not what others are doing. Don't let the enemy confuse you and take your eyes off of Jesus. He's the most important thing. Above all else. It's Him. And right now He wants to walk step by step with you. Every second He is with you. He will never leave you.
But the enemy and distractions like ppl are always going to be there. And you have to know what God says. The only way you can be sure and not doubt yourself is to read His Word.
Get to know God. His personality. What hurts Him. Why He cares so much.
What He thinks about you. What's He like?
He just waits for us patiently John to get to know Him. To discover Him. To be His friend. And that takes time. God is never in a rush. Because He's orchestrating a huge masterpiece to come together and you are apart that.
You have to ARM yourself by reading the Bible. Because the more confident you are in Him the less the enemy can take Your peace.
He watches you like an almond branch. Do you know how long it takes anything to grow when your watching it every second? Forever....
God's timing is different from ours. But He's always in the lead. And He's always driving. Grow strong in the Word. It's going to take time but He's not going anywhere....
Bless you little brother. You are in Good Hands.