holy vessels

Hello again, Friends. I went so long without talking and now, suddenly, I have alot of silly things to say.Last night I had a very disturbing dream. I awoke from the dream very upset. I was committing an old sin in the dream and when I awoke, I felt positively awful. I got out of bed and began to pray and tell the Lord how much I never want that to happen and how sorry I was that such a thing would awaken in my heart and God began to comfort me with these words:"There is a wickedness in the human heart and it can never be trusted. I alone can separate the holy from the profane. You can never cleanse yourself. I alone can keep you for my purposes, to glorify myself through you.The utensils in the temple were not special because they were different from other vessels. Many earthly kings have all sorts of things made from precious metals, valuable things. What made the temple utensits holy was that they were set apart for God's use. If it were not for that, they would have just been ordinary. The thing that makes a holy thing holy is---it's been consecrated to God---that's all. The wickedness of your heart may pass around like pictures in a kaleidescope, but that's unimportant because it's God alone who is holding up your holy life. You can't be holy apart from me. I have declared you holy, and as long as you present yourself to me as a living sacrifice, I'll keep you holy."I tell you, these words from God were amazing to me. I felt so awful about what was coming up in my heart, and by no control of my own. At first, I was really scared that I might return to my sin, but something clicked in me when God spoke. I realized that I am not "keeping" myself, but God will keep me as I submit myself to him. I never want to return to that old way of life. I'd rather be dead. But, I mustn't live in fear of myself. Are there some folks out there who are afraid of themselves? This is an awful feeling. I thank God that he is giving me a revelation about true holiness, and that I don't have to feel bad about my yucky heart 'cause everybody's got one, not just me, right? Love, Dian.

Spitfire wrote:This is an awful feeling. I thank God that he is giving me a revelation about true holiness, and that I don't have to feel bad about my yucky heart 'cause everybody's got one, not just me, right? Love, Dian.I heard a friend say this yesterday, "What I need to be saved from the most is myself!"You’re not the only one.I just came out of a 3 to 4 month "Depression, Burden, Mourning, Sadness" What it was I asked for God's Burden. And I asked God not to take it away I died inside. Finally I asked God to put me in the center of His will and to take it away. Now He is bringing me to that place.Have you ever read the book "With Christ in the School of Prayer" By Andrew Murray? It Revealed the Fathers heart to me and filled me with joy.I know that might sound like a contradiction. (God gave me His burden "Sadness" - God showed His loving heart to me "Joy")I guess it is like how our God can be angry with the wicked every day and While we where yet sinners and enemies to God, Christ died for us.The more we dedicate the more God will consecrate.1 Peter 1:15,16 but as He who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, because it is written, "Be holy, for I am holy."2 peter 1:3,4 as His divine power has given to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of Him who called us by glory and virtue, by which have been given to us exceedingly great and precious promises, that through these you may be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.Let us all look to the promises of our God and trust that God is true and can not lie.

Are there some folks out there who are afraid of themselves?O, indeed. For quite awhile and even to some extent now, was afraid of my thoughts, it all seemed to be so confusing and impossible to differentiate. Which was conviction, which was heaping guilt, which was of the devils minions?But frankly and I believe in large part from gaining ...nourishment... from all that is here, by that I mean all of the brethren that have shared their knowledge and experience and hearts and helped me think differently in so many ways...More by absorption than analytical application, though the latter isn't without recognition. It has caused me to ponder more and more on the Lord in different states of 'being' if I could put it that way. Different perspectives at different changes of life and following hard after the Lord it seems is one of constant changing, not always dramatically, often times seemingly 'nothing' appears to be going on. But the Lord has His purposes in mind with us and it is such an adventure, to be knowing and not knowing at the same time. Paradox's abound. Right now there is a settling inwardly, but I don't trust my feelings about that... it doesn't feel like feelings..(How's that for ... peculiar?!) Some strange peace it is, the agitation has died down for the time being and it is with out a doubt not because of anything I did, it's just the Lord having His way, as it ought to be. Think it was Jeff who said that he was learning the simple faith, strange thing is often how much travail we can go through to arrive there. Not entirely sure that it's not on purpose...could go on and on sister, but thought this applied at it's conclusion;"You ask a question about the baptism of the Holy Ghost—did I get there all at once, or easily? No, I did not. Pride and the possession of the high esteem of my many Christian friends kept me out for long enough. But immediately I was willing to sacrifice all and put myself on the Altar, which is Jesus Himself, all was begun and done.Holiness is not an attainment at all, it is the gift of God, and the pietistic tendency is the introspection which makes me worship my own earnestness and not take the Lord seriously at all. It is a pious fraud that suits the natural man immensely. He makes holy, He sanctifies, He does it all. All I have to do is come as a spiritual pauper, not ashamed to beg, to let go of my right to myself and act on Romans 12:1–2. It is never ‘Do, do and you’ll be’ with the Lord, but “Be, be, and I will do through you.’ It is a case of ‘hands up’ and letting go, and then entire reliance on Him.Chambers, O. 1958; 2002. Abandoned to God.

All I have to do is come as a spiritual pauper, not ashamed to beg, to let go of my right to myself and act on Romans 12:1–2. It is never ‘Do, do and you’ll be’ with the Lord, but “Be, be, and I will do through you.’ It is a case of ‘hands up’ and letting go, and then entire reliance on Him.You know, I've listened to Leonard Ravenhill sermons all week long. Yesterday I listened to Baptism of Fire. As I listen to this man who is a blazing inferno for God, I always just realize that I don't have a fire like that. I've recently just begun to 'beg' the Lord to send the fire into my life. I don't care what it costs me. I really don't (ya'll remind me when I forget). No one really knows God who doesn't come crawling as a beggar. He is a priceless pearl. You will have to sell all you have to "purchase the field" and even then, you will spend the rest of your life digging and sifting through dirt to recover those precious pearls, and you will feel like you got a bargain! You will feel almost as if you stole something because, when you finally receive from God, you know it was nothing you did to earn it, except beg. I always used to just fake my way along in Christian City. Now, I've left that whole fake mirage. I'm crawling on a dirt path begging all the way. And I like it. Love, Dian.

Mat 5:6 Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.shall be !!!!