In my 4 year walk with the Lord, in searching the Scriptures and asking the Holy Spirit of Truth to guide me, God is opening my eyes to see following Jesus is much harder than I was first told with the "peace and joy" Gospel I got at first. Jesus tells in the New Testament there is a cost, and Christians need to tell people there is a cost to following Him. He tells of a king going into battle must at first calculate if he is willing to do such a thing, evaluating things. It has been 4 years, and only recently have I heard a preaching about the cost of discipleship. I follow Jesus with the little strength I have, and now I see He requires even more holiness and love than I thought, but I suspected. What about this cost of discipleship? Can you tell me a bit about Jesus' cost? It is so hard on my flesh, and I love to follow Him, but it is hard. I have only heard a little about this, and I have seen it from the Bible and from Voice of the Martyrs ministry, but it seems christian teachings don't even seem to ever explain to young believers that there is actually a cost. The church people in my neighborhood are so disgustingly worldly and materially wealthy I doubt their love of God. Can anyone encourage me about this? I am willing to follow God, have others experienced and can explain the cost? Jesus from the Bible seems to want His followers to understand the cost. Is it simply hell or heaven? What about holiness? What is this all about? Jesus says for us to be holy? What does this mean in reality?What does following Jesus cost? What is giving up our lives and taking up the cross mean?
