As some might know i have been questioning my salvation for some time now, almost 3 years now, but today while reading the book of Ephesians i feel as if the Lord assured me of my salvation, I believe i am saved. I was reading this and i remember back when i first believed on Jesus back 8 years ago and i just felt as if the Lord was saying i was sealed. "13 In whom ye also trusted, after that ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye were sealed with that holy Spirit of promise,
Now i dont want to be wrong or anything, but i mean i lived in sin for sometime years ago while professing to be saved, and i was convicted all the time and in bondage and it just made me think how could i be saved and live like that and be forgiven for all i did. I really had a hard time forgiving myself, and i have spent the last 3 years speaking negativity about myself and how i wasnt saved, and all i have done is make thing worse. I wonder if that negativve confession and hurt me during these past years and my trials worse. But, i really believe the Lord has confirmed i am saved, but i am still will always examine myself as we should and make sure i perservere. Well God will make sure of that. I believe i grieved the Holy Spirit if anything now. I am not posting anything to start anymore conversation about my struggles, i just wanted to tell you of what might have been a revelation of my soul today. Praise God. Thank you for all your prayers.
