brother if you lak fear and love towards god , i think your are on the right path
keep drinking ,the word of god preached by men of god who have fear for god ,,like paul washer ,and cater conlon ,,
that is often wye we listen to thses saints ,is to keep the fire of the fear of god burning
its obvious you should reAD YOUR BIBLE ,,AND PRAY,beliving god will give you the fear of him ,,,but do baptise your self with with the washing of the water of the word of god spoken by men with the fear of the lord
if you want to love the lord more ,,then find out more about the gosple of grace ,and the holyness of god
the more you know god through his word, the more you will love the one whom you know
brother you cant love sombody you dont know
find out more about your wretcherdness and gods forgivness towards evil men
jesus him self said ,,,he who is forgiven much ,,LOVES MUCH
THE GRACE and mercy of god seems great to those who, have seen them selfs as the laest of all the saints ,and a cheif of sinners
the brighness of the stars ,is only visable ,with a backdrop of darkness
the beauty of god ,is seen in the back drop ,of our dark past,,,and a love and gratatude ,will rise up as the sun rises to give light to the world ,,love will spring forth from a humilated heart ,and a contrite spirit
with out gratatude towards god , there can be no love towards god
of course beseting sins in them selfs will rob us from the love of god and vital union with him ,,and and quench the love that we might want to express to god in prayer
we love him BECASUE HE FIRST LOVED US
seek to understand the love god has for you as evil as you might be ,,and you will not be able to not love god ,,find out ware his evalasting arms are ,,they are not far from you
we cant love him till we know he first loves us
it is a supanatural transactions that begines in heaven
and ends in heaven has a flow of loving water spiring up to life eturnal
let the river flow through the dark forest of your sinfull heart and bring pure fear ,and love to a jungal of thorns ,and tares
night and day be washed by the washing of the water of the word ,,be it spoken by men who have this river of water in them ,,,and you will depart from sin by believing him
believing his love for you
believing his promises to you
and believeing in the power in him
what is imposable for men is possable for god
and he that is in you is greater then he who is in the world
he who is born of god over comes the world
blessings