I have contacted a few in the area, my expastor had a man get together with me who talked about my problem and i had myself confess my sins and renounce them and they prayed for me. I met a christian counselor to and i sat down with him and another guy and told them of the problem and we prayed. I have talked to some over the phone too, and i mean it was very kind what everyone has done to help me, but i really didnt get better. I have read parts of Jim logans book including listening to some of his sermons. Also i have just recently read some of pigs in the parlor, i also have read some of bondage breaker and have even read a book on spiritual warfare by derek prince. Have tried some of the stuff people have said, but nothing has really helped. The only thing that seemed to help was fasting and prayer, but that even didnt completely deliver me. Some of the deliverance ministries i am so unsure about, some of the stuff they say i am unsure if it is true or not. I have even tried to go just trusting the Lord many times, but still been overcome by this all. The worst for me that they are afflicting my health so much and it is hard to be at a right state of mind because of this. i will check jim logans site to see if i can call him, but it is probably only a business phone. I really am at a lost for answers to be honest. It really feels as if God is against me at times, but then sometimes it feels like he isn't and is for me when things get better. I know he is for me in Christ though, i just cant seem myself being in Christ when i am filled with wickedness and evil thoughts its hard to see yourself in a good way when your in the state i am in.
