I feel like my time with the Lord when I talk to Him it's very one sided and selfish crying out to God for just my issues. I know this might seem like a weird question, but I'm looking for how to be intimate with the Lord and what that time spend with Him is supposed to look like.
Brother,
I suffered from this same condemnation for awhile, just today I got a revelation on it. I would pray and then my worries (burdens) about work, stress, business etc. would flood my mind and rather than feel good about my time with God I would get condemned over my thoughts and it became a burden.
Today I was praying and this same thing happened and I got a revelation on it. The Lord asked me if I would listen to the things that were on my youngest sons heart (things that were bothering him) and of course I would if I knew that it was troubling him, without a doubt!
If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! ~MT 7:11
If it is troubling us, it is troubling our heavenly Father. We all know the words to this song:
If the world from you withholds all it's silver and it's gold,
And you have to get along with meager fare,
Just remember, in His Word, how He feeds the little bird;
Take your burden to the Lord and leave it there.Leave it there, leave it there,
Take your burden to the Lord and leave it there.
If you trust and never doubt, He will surely bring you out.
Take your burden to the Lord and leave it there.
All of these thoughts were going through my head so I just took that burden to the Lord and as soon as I did I felt peace to pray on! The key to the truth in the song is LEAVE IT THERE, don't take it with you.
The devil will do everything in his power to shut you up from prayer, know this! He will fire darts "you're only concerned about yourself" "that was a lame prayer, all you do is complain to the Father", I've heard them all, multiple times. Press on, break through, praise His name!
If what you are doing was ineffective you would not hear any flak from the devil, he is, by definition a liar and there is NO (not a grain of) truth in him. Basically you can take what he says, and praise the Lord because the exact opposite is true!
If the Lord hears and we are judged by every 'idle' word, how much more does He hear the cry of His children offered up from a broken and loving heart? I'm telling you it blesses His heart to hear from His children!
DON'T STOP BROTHER!!
Hope this helps you out :-)
Much love!